our freindship went deeper like he said problems with his wife and kids. ganun kaming ka-close. oftentime nag hangout kami sa room ko pag wala masyado ginagawa sa office. we’re jsut there singing and dancing kwentuhan…but no sexual stuffs involve. dumating din sa point na regualr sya nagtetext at biglang naging “game” na like kung sino sa min ang mnagtetext ng una lalo na pag wkend since hinid kami magkikita ng 2 days.then when monday came, sasabihin nya na madami daw sya ginawa kaya di sya nakapag text to think na wala naman dapat itext.

dumating ang araw na i have to go to canada and stayed there for good. Hindi nya ako kinausap ng ilang araw. But two days before my flight, he texted me, nagparamdam sya. So i invited him to my place at buong araw kami sa room ko…kwentuhan, reminiscing our first meeting, singing..etc. I remember pa nung unang nalaman nya yung plano ko na umalis, hindi sya nagbibiro ng medyo kinky but 3 times nya ako na biniro na medyo bastos hehehe. kasi humihingi ako sa kanya ng farewell gift. sabi kasi nya nun bibigyan daw nya ako. when i reminded him abt it biglang sabi nya, “sige bibili kita ng kahit anu basta ba papakantot ka sa kin”. I just shrugged it off at di ko pinansin and i took it as biro. pero everytime na pinaalala ko yung farewell gift nya lagi na nya yun sinasabi. never syang magbiro sa kin ng ganun beofre, nun lang nung paalis n ko…pero siguro biro lang yun…

pero na-inlove ako sa kanya…i just dont know kung sya may naramdaman dins a kin…

In the past decade or so, I enjoy the company of straight men, regardless of class, status, regional origin or age. with them, I just be myself- bare of my true colors, speaking the same language, and even if effeminate that i am, like most of you- I must admit gays are often the livewire of any situation. we are well versed of any topic of conversation all because a lot of gays are well read, keen with all sorts of media and updated with almost all current situation. we share our thoughts when solicited and whenever we articulate any, they are either with substance or filled with contagious humor.

if i wax profound deeper into the situation, for me, i will trace back the reason to when i was young. often, when i got physically and verbally abused, I would always run into our communal room, look for my school bag and read my books or do my assignments. I would forget the pain while reading or solving mathematical problems. I would memorize poems even if they were not required to study them. I found comfort enriching myself with knowledge believing that education would free me from the bondage of being ridiculed …. abused…. of being accepted as one of them… Maybe i share this experience with a lot of you and maybe because of this, I have learned the art of enriching myself with skills that is conducive to any type of situation, gender, age or race. I feel confident because I know, they can benefit the same fun with my company not far different from another straight guy, but sometimes they admit, even much better! the truth of the matter is, straight guys are gay to be with, and that is a matter of fact!