One of the many great things I really enjoy when I started having this blog is receiving emails from readers. I get several everyday, and I tell you however busy I get, I always make it a point to open my email inbox, and excitedly go through emails from MGG readers.
For this post, I picked one email exchange. The email is from Seth, a father of two kids, each from a different woman. He asks, “Am I gay?” This is pretty long, but rather interesting. Read on.
(Below is the exact email sent by Seth to me…)
hi…
my name’s seth..
i don’t know how to start…
mainly im here hoping you have the answer to this question…
kung ano ba talaga ako…?
im really confused…
im 21 years old.. dalawa na anak.. from two different woman..
i’ve always been known as a chick boy, chick magnet. and other similar stuff…
and talaga i love women.. and i probably wont be able to live without them…
pero somehow i get attracted to men…
lalo na if they are more attractive than me.. im not really bad my self btw…
anyway..
all i remember.. that i started having this kind of feeling when i was in 2nd year college… pinasali ako ng prof ko dati sa parang contest… interschool na beauty pageant…
i was attracted sa isang fellow contestant… i felt weird kasi alam ko straight ako… later i got to know him better… and the feeling just got worst.. i wanted to get inside his pants.. talagang gusto ko na sapakin sarili ko at hindi ko na maintindihan nararamdaman ko.. sabi ko probably just the tequila i had…
later sa contest… fortunately nanalo nman ako.. he came to me.. congratulated me at kung pede ko daw cya samahan… didn’t know wer pero sama nman ako… and the rest was of the story was my first time “experience” with a guy…
since then… i get attracted to men… pero ang totoo four times palang akong nagkaroon ng sexual experience with another guy…
and this is probably the reason….
’twas my second experience with a guy when i tried to go as far as sucking.. and getting nailed in the ass… pero it wasn’t very pleasant for me… i was even near beating the guy after sticking his thing in me…
after nung experience na yun.. i said to myself.. hindi nman cguro ako bakla talaga coz.. if i was.. na enjoy ko sana yun…
pero still… hindi parin nawawala yung fact na attracted parin ako sa men…. ewan ko pero i enjoy so much watching another guy s*cking me.. tsaka yung thought na im f*cking a guy…
im trying my best to stay away from having sexual experiences with guys again… kasi naaawa lng ako sa nagiging partner ko… like nung last time… he gave me a bj.. i f*cked him in the ass… after… he was obviously expecting me to do something in return.. wala nman akong ginawa kundi nagbihis at umalis…
i don’t think its fair kung ganon..
when i’m making love to a woman.. i make sure na i give her pleasure… at hindi sarili ko lng iniisip… i think that’s how sex should be…
ewan ko bah… sometimes im thinking mental defect na ata tong akin…. sobra na ko maniac… do you think i’m gay? or do you think i just need profesional help…
my email’s quite long… sorry…
sorry din if somehow medyo offensive email ko..
lalo na sa paraan ko ng pagkwekwento…
i’ll be happy to hear an answer from you soon…
btw… i have a gay friend who recommended you to me..
sabi nya better to ask you than go to a sex therapist or something…
salamat ng marami…
hi seth…
first of all, i’m not a therapist
consider me a friend who wants to help.
alam mo, marami na akong nakausap na katulad mo. i too went through a similar process. hindi madali, talagang nakakalito to the point na mafu-frustrate ka. masuwerte ka na that you have a friend who you can talk to about this (i assume, alam nung gay friend mo about your confusion.) when i was confused before, wala akong masabihan. i even know one guy who committed suicide because of this. kaya unahan na kita — be strong, and look forward to that great happiness you will experience once you find your true self.
you ask, “do you think i’m gay?” — and i answer that: hindi importante kung ano ang sagot ko. ang importante, kung ano ang sagot mo. pero kung pipilitin mo ako sumagot, i would bluntly say, based on what you have shared, yes you probably are. the next question is, ano ba ang ibig sabihin ng gay? mahabang talakayan yan, pero the short answer is — maraming klase ng gay. sa karamihan ng tao, ang gay eh yung mga parlorista na nagsusuot pambabae. pero isang klase lang ng gay yung ganun. marami pa tayo, iba’t ibang uri, hugis, itsura, pananalita, galaw, etc.
pag-isipan mo muna ang mga ito. kuwentuhan mo pa ako. baka mas marami pa akong ma-share din sa iyo next time.
Migs
The next day, Seth replied … with something quite shocking, and with some more revealing details… will share it in the next posts… Abangan!
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