bitter? hindi kundi kahit dito sa singapore…ang mga pinoy (bakla or straight) dito…mas malaya na eh di pa rin makipagsettle…..

grrrr….

but how can one ask for fidelity?

Maybe its something like peace of mind.

People in a relationship make up the rules in that relationship – no one has the right to judge what they think is right for them – judge not and you shall not be judged, people. If one of us is tempted to raise ourselves as paragons of virtue just because our relationships are strictly momogamous, do so but not at the expense of looking down on other people as “promiscuous” just because they’ve outgrown (consciously or unconsciously) the traditional interpretation or rules of what an ideal relationship should be.

Best regards

the other night a pal kinda hit the nail on the head when he said i just dont want to get hurt kaya i dont want to be set up.

i dont want to date.
in fact, ive planned my life partnerless na.

you know why?
1. i dont want to get hurt anymore. i dont think i have it in me to survive another heartbreak.
2. i dont want to hurt people anymore.
3. i really have no fucking idea what i want anyway.
4. and i dont really know what to do.

between my ex and the other person ive seriously loved, plus the guys in between (minor flings really)
ive come to realize that maybe im not relationshop material.

im doing fine by myself. and sometimes, i just find the guy thng a chore or a bore.

my brother thinks im being too picky. he makes it seem like picky is bad. but ive noticed that the reason many relationships fail is the couple sold out on what they really want out of the fear of being alone.

brother thinks i let too few people in, that i put myself on a pedestal. thing is to me, letting people in and giving them a shot—is not a matter of something ill do just for the sake of—its actually something ill do based on how i feel, and how my heart and my instinct guide me.

we always argue about my lovelife—feeling kasi ata niya anak niya ako. ahahahahaha. sinesermunan pa ako. i know he means well. minsan lang talaga feeeling ko di niya ko naintindihan kaya tumatahimik na lang ako.

Anyway, I once commented in Theo class that the reason male homosexuals are viewed as promiscuous by society (as compared to lesbians), is the fact that the people involved are both male. Now, if you look at the normal relationship, there is already a huge propensity for cheating because it is usually the male who gives in to his libido. This theory may be flawed, but some parts of it are familiar.

I am currently in a relationship with a guy. I did not know that he had a girlfriend when he met me and only learned about his having a girlfriend when we became really serious. Admittedly, we are both malandi, but we have a look-but-don’t-touch policy, instead channeling our… lust? and sharing it with each other (to the other partner’s derision or agreement). Hehe. Yes, we point out which guy is gwapo and we laugh over it.

Whenever temptation comes, I greet it with this mantra: Will he care for me as much as my bf? Will he be there for me? or is he just a one-night-stand? Would the trade-off of my partner knowing about the one-night-stand and reacting about it be worth the sex?

Sigh. Anyway, I told him that it would be okay with me if he did it with another guy, as long as he comes back to me and tells me about it.

Pinaisip niyo din ako dyan Migs & CC ah.