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“Wana mit?”
Entry Feed TrackbackWhile preparing to leave the office last night, I received an SMS: “Wana mit?”
“Wen? 2nyt?”
“Yes. U free?”
“Yep. Abt 2 liv d ofc. Wer do i mit u?”
“Hir sa haus. Come.”
I stopped for a bit, but told myself, “what the heck.”
I SMSd back. “Sure. Txt me directions.”
Half an hour later, I was talking with him on the phone: “Dito na ako sa street ninyo. Which house is yours?”
“I’m right outside the house, waiting for your car. Yan na, I can see you na.”
I arrived at his house. It was our first time to see each other. Yes, an EB without prior exchange of photos. With his welcoming smile I knew he liked what he saw. Not sure though if it was the car or me he liked. I was ok, I neither liked nor disliked what I saw.
He let me in, straight to his room. It was dark and humid, the TV flickering with a Gossip Girl episode.
“Come sit on my bed.”
“Thanks.”
A pregnant pause. I was pretending to watch the TV, but with my peripheral vision I saw him staring at me. As if gobbling me up from a distance.
He broke the silence: “Kiss me?”
Several more minutes I was on top of him, both of us naked. He said he was liking it, but I felt it was more of craving for it. “Migs, ikaw pa lang nakagawa sa akin nito.”
In my mind, “sure, sure.”
After several more minutes, I came. And when it was his time he wanted me to go inside him again. Hungry man he was.
While clothing up, he was mumbling something about his schedule the next day.
“May VTR pa ako bukas.”
I pretended not to understand. Turned out he’s one of those upcoming, struggling, male models. In my mind, “oh no, not again.”
Before I left, he kissed me on the lips briefly. “Text me?”
My mouth said “sure,” but my mind thought, “why?” Then I bolted out to my car.
While driving home, the streets were drenched with the night rain. My windshield was blurred with splashing water. My ipod was on, playing Eric Bennet’s “The Last Time.” Around me, everything was busy and blurry.
In my mind, I was thinking, “if only I had a partner.”
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what migs, “if only you had a partner”?, then you would not have succumed to his invites?….. pero nag enjoy ka ba? …. curious lang… what’s missing in this short story is kung nag enjoy ka… then ok lang… ibang issue mo na lang ung partner… o dahil ba taken na c janvier? joke… world peace, abay
cast at Nov 22, 07 at 1:13 pm
one of those nights…he will come migs, he will come…
doki at Nov 22, 07 at 1:29 pm
@ migs – what situations you experience… id give anything to have that story written in my book… and id probably tread on that chapter…
lucky you migs…
i never get to have those moments…
when people will want you…
ive been always on the other end of the spectrum… and frankly im really tired of chasing…
its been always like that…
thing is if i stop chasing, then id really end up alone because i will never be an object to someones eye…
guess what im saying is…
youre a lucky man in all aspects…
and i envy that…
daemoneyes at Nov 22, 07 at 1:59 pm
..uhummm
peppoi at Nov 22, 07 at 2:58 pm
Wana mit, Migs?
Woodstock at Nov 22, 07 at 3:06 pm
Bakit ba me mga post ka na nakakaiyak??? Or ako lang yung me problema?
I wish it could be easier for us PLUs to love and be loved.
I wish…
… that forever is normal
… that loyalty and fidelity is what’s hip
… that we may always see blue skies like never before
… that we can love for the last time and it would also be our partner’s last
… that things are simplier
… that as far as I can see, there’s only you and only me (hay lecheng lyrics)
… that none is left alone
… that… that…
… haaay migs…
… matutuluyan na ata itong Clinical depression ko…
… prozac… ay na discontinue na na doc to dati …
… haaay.
lee at Nov 22, 07 at 4:09 pm
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Gregg D'Bully at Nov 22, 07 at 4:19 pm
damn, i’d like to go for one round with you Migs. hehe just playing, but it’ll be nice to chat with you in person tho.
Anyway, you guys won’t ever hook up again. did you enjoy it at least? damn, pretty crazy if you tell me. late night rendezvous, where to? my place say 2? haha gotta love craig david.
M at Nov 22, 07 at 4:31 pm
GOSSIP GIRL!
Hehehe.
Gusto ko sina Jenny and Dan Humphrey.
Flinstone at Nov 22, 07 at 4:55 pm
haaay… kalungkot naman
peter_rian at Nov 22, 07 at 5:01 pm
Kailangan ba talaga ng partner para lang masabi mong masaya ka sa buhay mo?
Isaribi at Nov 22, 07 at 5:48 pm
If only I had a partner…to get trapped with in a sexless relationship? The grass is always greener…
Quentin X at Nov 22, 07 at 5:52 pm
…hello grannies!
Blonde_skinny_bitch at Nov 22, 07 at 7:06 pm
salamat sa pagsagot mo sa tanong ko migs. hindi nag eexist ang platonic love sa buhay bakla.
i wish you happiness migs!
happy thanksgiving.
lordrommel27 at Nov 22, 07 at 7:41 pm
I Know the feelings, being an American in Manila and in Showbuisness, They coem after you from EVERYWERE……..Thank God…….
Mark at Nov 22, 07 at 7:45 pm
Yeah if only you have a partner can I apply hahaha
ernesto at Nov 22, 07 at 8:29 pm
Aww, don’t be sorry for your self MGG, someday, your prince will come
God bless!
PinoyGayGuy at Nov 22, 07 at 8:42 pm
nakakalungot naman. parang black hole. parang vacuum. naexperience ko na kasi ang ganitong pause amidst the busy corporate life (feeling hehe). anyway, cheer up migs. you can be happy even without a partner. alone but not lonely.
eponine at Nov 22, 07 at 9:18 pm
Parang wala ka ng nararamdaman sa casual sex?Nakakatakot.
Anino at Nov 22, 07 at 9:32 pm
…….
(silence)
maktub at Nov 22, 07 at 9:35 pm
:_(
cinnamon_cookie at Nov 22, 07 at 9:58 pm
Sana mag-meet naman tayong lahat na regular reader ni Migs, anu kaya..hmmm
Roll Call!
peppoi at Nov 22, 07 at 11:08 pm
OMG. christmas is fast approaching pa naman.. you’ll get more of those lonely rainy nights, while everything around you is in a hurly burly over the holiday cheer.
xoxo at Nov 22, 07 at 11:17 pm
hello migs… wanna mit? ahehehe mitathione? hehehehe
sana magtetext si leandro okabe sa akin ng ganyan
blue_harajuku at Nov 22, 07 at 11:36 pm
…a friendly reminder to all! your annual LGBT Pride is coming up!
am not so sure if its too cold over there, coz its freezing in NYC this Thanksgiving Parade day! OMG …huge balls and candycanes floating everywhere just like Gay Pride! Oops! gggo meet and have fun! …and don’t forget to bring your warm shawls and cane! Oops! 
…we’ll be there in spirit! Happy Thanksgiving!
Blonde_skinny_bitch at Nov 23, 07 at 12:11 am
yuck! di ka man lang nag-banlaw pagkatapos niyong mag-dyug! yuck!
very particular about personal hygiene,
anton maton
anton maton at Nov 23, 07 at 12:17 am
EB peppoi? para que? for group sex? or para mag-gantsilyo? ok see u on LGBT Pride March.
jimg29 at Nov 23, 07 at 12:20 am
MIGS, u gwapo ba? as in. i hope i cud see u even in photo lang. can i? email me pls.
bam at Nov 23, 07 at 12:30 am
so, what’s the point?
taylor at Nov 23, 07 at 12:49 am
it all boils down to a very simple question….
Was it worth it?
That was purely lust.
Sex.
There was no love.
Little Fish at Nov 23, 07 at 1:23 am
* for blonde_skinny_bitch: the macy’s thanksgiving parade wasn’t freezing at all. it was in 60s. come on, how could that be freezing. it became even hot when the crowd is packed.
gay_in_nyc at Nov 23, 07 at 1:25 am
if only you have a partner… migs, only time can tell when, but for now enjoy being single. ciao’
berns at Nov 23, 07 at 4:04 am
@migs: interesting post. Howd he get your number in the first place? It really intrigues me how you look? From your kwentos you must be good-looking..are you? Btw..whats your dayjob?
jang chul soo at Nov 23, 07 at 5:01 am
i agree, migs, things like this do not happen when you’re in a relationship… provided you’re the relationship type that does not fool around. On the down side, these things do not happen in a relationship. Quentin X was right in saying the grass is always greener on the other side.
Life has a way of throwing things at you that you don’t fully appreciate until it’s taken back.
Whatever happens, Migs, enjoy each moment that life gives you so that you’ll have memories of a lifetime. Just make sure that you are safe each time. One moment of idiotic pleasure is not worth a lifetime of regret
chismoso at Nov 23, 07 at 7:56 am
haaay
kel at Nov 23, 07 at 8:08 am
feeling ko lang migs, dapat ang soundtrack ng episode mong ito ay COME UNDONE ng duran/duran… yon bang nilabasan ka pero hindi ka nag-orgasm… ganun… ganun?
rAzAzO'o at Nov 23, 07 at 8:21 am
“if only I had a partner.”
..you wouldn’t do these things?
this is the very best example of why i choose not to be engaged in anything and everything about meaningless sex..this can be very “lea bustamante” of me but i am hoping that someday people will understand the value and the feeling of two souls having sex and not the feeling of our earthly bodies doing it for purely orgasmic pleasures.
hugs to you Migs
James at Nov 23, 07 at 9:31 am
migs, i wanna mit you. not because i wanna do ‘it’ with you but i just wanna pick your brains. let me know.
hehehe
supermanix at Nov 23, 07 at 9:37 am
everybody hits their strike. i guess if you continue doing this, one day you’ll find yourself burned out.
i have nothing about casual sex, it can be exciting but the satisfaction is not complete. for a time you can be happy but only to a certain extent.
what’s the cure to a lonely soul? a warm embrace only lights up the vacuous expanse, not really filling the void..
just my two cents worth
maverick at Nov 23, 07 at 10:27 am
how sad….you’re a very typical shallow bakla…. always looking for a quick, anonymous, meaningless lay…. what a turn off….. so what’s with all your supposedly intellectual musings and pseudo-longing for a romantic and meaningful relationship crap…such hypocrisy.
alfonsonova at Nov 23, 07 at 10:54 am
hi Migs… Tagal ko na rin akong avid reader mo. I rally like your postings.
welcome mo nman ako.hehehe
Anyway, how good wasthe gguy that you have had met last nov, 22?
brent at Nov 23, 07 at 2:44 pm
ar-ouch ko!
jimg29 at Nov 23, 07 at 2:47 pm
youre kinda full of yourself huh.
brazilian at Nov 23, 07 at 5:27 pm
dami reaction hehehehe
john doe at Nov 23, 07 at 6:51 pm
@alfonsonova – everyone succumbs at one point in life. If you actually read MGG, you’d realize that Migs just missed having a relationship with two people. We cope differently. At least Migs was man enough to admit his affairs. If you react this way, I wonder how you’d react to Corp Closet?
Anyway, Migs you’re really making me curious as to what you look like. LOL. You’ll find a partner soon. From what I read, you’re smart, loving, of stable means, and good-looking (based on all your exes), I’m sure there are many who’d die to be with you.
QtheConqueror at Nov 23, 07 at 7:05 pm
…60 deg is definitely freezing! couldn’t get deliciously hottt Manhattanite’s pole to stand up on Herald Square! Oops!
…don’t tell me you live in the North Pole, right? didya waive at Santa?
Blonde_skinny_bitch at Nov 23, 07 at 8:32 pm
that’s an uber SMS which leads to an uber expectations?!
dazedblu at Nov 24, 07 at 4:23 pm
haay migs, i feel the same way…wish i had a partner… ;(
adrian™ at Nov 24, 07 at 4:49 pm
aayy, first time ko pala mag post ng reply dito sa site mo
adrian™ at Nov 24, 07 at 5:02 pm
hmmmm…parang d totoo? world peace migS! hehehehe….
iloveboom at Nov 24, 07 at 7:08 pm
It’s as if you are born to live.
And no matter how hard you try to look for someone to feel with,
life brings you to labyrinth of life’s To-Live-Streets.
To live or to feel?
Of course one is co-existent with the other, but which is dominant?
And where are you leading your material body to?
To the end of your heart’s rainbow or to the cul de sac of your hand’s living avenue?
Why can’t you find it?
Do you think you really do not know?
What if I tell you, YOU KNOW!?
dowell at Nov 24, 07 at 10:28 pm
there’s nothing wrong with anonymous sex. as long as it’s safe sex.
jay at Nov 26, 07 at 2:05 pm
migs naman, watch seth rogen in knocked up and tell me if you can do what they did.
I like seth rogen by the way.
Go chubs go!!!!!!
my yellow shirt at Nov 26, 07 at 9:11 pm
kahit tingin ng iba nakakatawa ang ganitong sitwasyon, i find it really sad…:(
gerald at Nov 26, 07 at 9:54 pm
that’s why i really believe it is worth the wait and search for a partner.
kiko at Nov 27, 07 at 2:48 pm
is this real or not. wanna mit
milo at Dec 25, 07 at 7:34 am
If only I had a partner, i wouldn’t have to go through this vicious cycle of having casual sex just to fill the void. I know it’s pretty tiring and frustrating. You waste your time and effort. You’re looking for love but end up settling for instant gratification instead – because it’s the next best thing to feeling good. This experience makes you realize that you are wanted, but you know that’s not how you want it to be.
If only I had a partner, I would be kept in my own place.
For now, I have to learn how to be whole , happy, and fulfilled – then maybe, just maybe, someone will see my worth.
havock at Dec 25, 07 at 8:48 am
true ba ito?
dulay at Aug 3, 08 at 12:50 pm
i am ending a 20-year relationship. wana mit anyone?
downunder at Aug 24, 08 at 9:39 pm
ok lets mit…
matthew at Nov 20, 08 at 12:40 pm
so typical, nakakarelate ko in every detail… funny & @ the same time, sad
rico at Apr 13, 09 at 12:25 pm