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Hi Migs,

Alam ko dami mo letter-sender na inspiring ang mga messages nila. Hindi ko alam kung medyo kakaiba ito but this is real at gusto ko ishare sa mga readers mo.

I’m 29 years old, very happily married but no child yet by choice and straight-acting. Hindi ko itatanggi na I have been practicing this orientation for almost 5 years and so far so good.. At alam mo naman siguro pag mga straight-acting, mas active ang sex-life kesa sa mga open or so I think. Naranasan ko na halos lahat ng klase ng gay-sex. 3some, orgies, seb, name it. Malamang sa hindi, nagawa ko na. Kaya masasabi ko na bato na ang puso ko sa emosyon. Hindi na ako madaling maattach emotionally sa mga kasex ko. Until recently.

I met a guy 6 years my junior. Nakasalubong ko sa mall, nagkatinginan kami, paglampas ko nilingon ko uli at gaya ko, siya din nakatingin pa sa akin. Ngumiti siya, tumango ako. Pero hindi kami puwedeng mag-usap, me mga kasama ako kaibigan na mga straight. Pero gaya nga ng tagline ng isang banko at ikoquote ko na “we find ways”, nagkita kami uli, same mall at nagmotel kami somewhere in Pasig. Di ko alam pero binigay ko yung number ko sa kanya. I usually don’t.

Naulit ang pagkikita namin at pagsisex. My intention was just to have sex with him. The guy is hot, guwapo, med-built and funny at magaling sa sex. He wanted to bottom me pero sorry, para sa akin battle yan, kung sino mahina siya dapat ang bottom pero di ko itatanggi na kahit top ako, puwede din ako maging bottom, depende sa sitwasyon.

Sa next na pagkikita namin, after sex we talked. Nakuha na niya ang loob ko and I wanted to test him. Tinanong niya ako kung bakit hindi ako makapag-overnight sa bahay nila at lagi akong nagmamadali, “siguro may sabit ka no?” I said yes. And I saw his eyes. Literally, nawala yung glow. Kitang-kita mo yung pag-iba ng mukha niya kahit dim light. Alam ko na ang batang ito, sanay sa ganito. He has long standing account in g4m but deleted it sa harap ko, one time na magkasama kami sa kuwarto niya sabay sabi sa aking “tapos na ang paghahanap”.

But that moment, nagulat ako sa naramdaman ko. sanay din ako sa ganito, sanay akong di na ititext ang mga nakasex ko kahit gusto pa nila kung ayaw ko na. Sanay akong mangfrustrate ng tao ng walang pakialam sa nararamdaman nila pero ang batang ito, iba. kitang-kita ang sincerity ng mga mata niya. And for the first time, I feel for him. Hindi ko alam. parang nasaktan ako, parang sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, inacknowledged ko na me nasaktan akong tao.

Kinaumagahan, he texted me “nakahanda akong magtiis, wag ka lang mawawala sa akin” That night we had sex, that was the best sex, after a long-long time na naranasan ko. Of course, with my wife is out of the question here. Random sex, I mean. Hindi ako humihingi ng paumanhin sa pagiging selfish ko. Wala akong pakialam kung me nasaktan man akong mga tao sa pagsunod ko sa nararamdaman ko. It’s between me and my God. Dahil sa nakita kong sinseridad ng bata sa pagmamahal niya sakin, nakahanda akong pagbigyan siya. Kung ako man ang dahilan at titigil na siya sa paghahanap, gusto kong maging inspirasyon niya. Pero on my part, dahil sa nakita kong paghihirap niya nung aminin ko sa kanyang me sabit na ako, lesson na sa akin yun. Na huwag ng makipaglaro sa nararamdaman ng iba. Na pipilitin ko na rin tumigil na sa ganitong buhay. Hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko (daming guwapo sa paligid parekoy!) but I would like to give it a try. To be fair to him.

Hindi ko alam kung saan papunta ang samahan namin. Kahit naman sa straight na samahan walang kasiguruhan. Steady date kami. Alam kong bata pa siya at somewhere along the way, he’ll meet someone na deserving at walang sabit, ang mahalaga we both learned our lesson, ako to be aware of the feelings of others at siya, to fight for your love no matter what it costs. But as of now, I’ll allow myself to be his “happy” Sino naman ako para tumanggi. Masarap naman siyang kasama. And no, hindi pa rin niya ako nakukumbinsing magbottom. Bwehehe!

Thanks Migs, I hope I can meet you soon….

Mike (this is my real name, unique ano?)

Comments (88)

  1. NONO said on 09-12-2010

    I might be harsh but come on mga bading if we wanted to be treated with respect, then it has to start from us. If we disrespect each other and other people where does that leave us? In my life I tried very hard to conform with common decency with other bading and the straight world, yes I do have a raging libido like any other of you but there is always a place and time for that. With Mike he plays the field wantonly without regard to the other people involved, as long as he is satisfied and yet here we are we expect respect and recognition as a group.

  2. NONO said on 09-12-2010

    Being in the closet will always be a norm until society itself accept homosexuality as part of the mainstream humankind until then we will always have the same kind of story. For Mike you are nothing but a selfish, unfeeling, stupid son of a bitch. You are a sorry excuse for a man why, you opted to hide your sexuality behind a woman and my heart goes out for her. You don’ t realize the gravity of what you are doing because of your libido and cowardice you involved and hurt people. What about if you’re going to have a kid? That’s another human being you will involve in your reckless lifestyle. I guess you are just plain heartless monster of a man.

  3. Nico said on 31-03-2010

    OK. First I want to apologize because I’m a foreigner in your wonderful country who hasn’t yet mastered Tagalog. So I can’t understand all of the original post. But I’m an older married guy and I’ve had many younger Pinoy bfs. The problem is most have seen me as a bank rather than a serious partner. My wife (who is also foreign) was very supportive when I came out to her, but that turned when she realised I could love another man. We’re separated now, although not yet divorced. We’re still good friends and I still send most of my salary to my kids (My wife’s salary isn’t enough to cover all the bills). Most bisexual guys eventually become totally gay (statistics state 90%). Now I have a house in the Philippines and I have a bf who is totally devoted to me. It’s early days in our relationship but he’s so mabait I really think he’s the one. I decided to move to the Philippines because I’ve worked with Pinoys for so long I understand much of your culture, I have a lot of friends in Pinas, and I have a severe weakness for Asian men.
    But the effect on my family? My wife doesn’t want to meet another man because she can’t trust men after me. My kids love me but don’t want to visit the Philippines or see me with a bf. So yes, you can say I am selfish. But for you guys who are totally straight, or totally gay, from the very start, it’s not as cut and dried as that when you are bi. Everyone says bi-men have (or want) the best of both worlds. But in fact we have the best of neither world. I’m not after sympathy with this post. I just want you guys condemning Mike to wait until you’re in a similar situation before you drop the axe

  4. officemate said on 13-12-2009

    So, where’s the sequel to your story, Mike? Or have you run out of inspiration? Peace.

  5. James said on 11-12-2009

    haha..mike………..
    funny story..
    …yawn!!!!

  6. mike said on 23-11-2009

    pano kita ititext christian to let you know I do exist? hehe.

  7. christian del rosario said on 05-09-2009

    is it for real kasi di me makapaniwala if its true could mike text me so i would believe he really is exiting. hehehehe!

  8. samara bulletin said on 12-07-2009

    it relates with my current situation, first only for sex but then it become deeper than that, it become relationship… and love…
    He is married with two young kids, I, alone naturally,
    one time my friends told me to break-up with him, but i replied nothing, even a single word, i cant ask him to leave me all the way, without perfect reasons, i loved him and am sure he does also unto me.

    What to do, yani?

  9. Sean said on 04-07-2009

    Mike,

    There are people who love to toy with other people’s heart and then pagmedyo naghulog na tlaga then they would really take advantage of that person. But I always believe in the saying na “What comes around goes Arount” tama ba? so just becareful because you’re playing with the people that love you. Baka sa sobrang paglalaro mo these people will go away and you will find yourself alone regretting for the things you’ve done. If you have sabit then i think it’s better to let go of this young man and let him find his own happiness. I know he is happy when he’s around you but until this happiness ang kaya mong ibigay sa kanya. At the days go bye mas lalo mo lang syang sasaktan. Atleast ikaw you have the fall back sa asawa mo eh sya wla. So to make the story short be fair and play fair too. Peace out man.

  10. dfilboy said on 26-06-2009

    i dont know what to comment. nkailang edit na q and i ended up posting nothing related to the blog. lol basta, just cherish nlang the unforgettable moments. un lng tlaga msasabi ko. i hope i helped.

  11. Kiko said on 16-05-2009

    Let go Mike. It may hurt for a while but be fair to all concerned.

  12. Biaako said on 11-05-2009

    To the originator of this thread “Married Guy Shares His Story”,

    Please read my response to your story, above, and let me know what you think.

  13. Biako said on 11-05-2009

    I think the most part, especially in economically depressed third world countries, the claimed bisexuality of some many men is a selfish defense mechanism aimed towards societal approval and preservation of self, never mind integrity, never mind hurting the poor unknowing woman, never mind the mental and emotional impact to the kids when things finally unravel.

  14. popoy6in said on 26-02-2009

    ako ay isa ding bi married man. sorry sa wife ko if at times i look at men. this is my orientation … di pa naman ako caught red handed but i would really wanna find a guy who would be willing to enter into a relationship with me na di mag dedemand for he understands my situation that i am with my family … oo selfish pero ang gusto ko lang naman is someone who can understand me and someone who is open to be my consatnt companion … i hope that by this site, i can find that guy …

    for those who want to be a friend .. you can email me at popoy6in@yahoo.com.

    thanks a lot guys

  15. dan said on 30-01-2009

    i feel sorry for the wife. that’s all i can say. i really feel sorry for the wife.

  16. xander said on 29-01-2009

    i feel sorry for the younger guy.
    you did not mention in your story mike that you love the guy.
    when he said that tapos na ang paghahanap, i think he meant that he already fallen for you. he already love you. if a guy would say those words to me, well im not that desperate pero alam mo yon, it means a lot. alam mo kung anong klaseng buhay meron ang mga taong katulad natin di ba? and when you say the serch is over, thats fucking big.
    its not fair, sana ma realize mo yon pero at the end of the day its still up to you.
    kung san ka masaya.

  17. Diyosa Karmela said on 15-01-2009

    Na Bibitter Ocampo ako sa drama na yan ha!!! P*nyeta, korek buti pa mga hypocrites yung mga nagpapanggap na straight pero naka blush ummm aminin hahahaha!!! Nakaka sex lagi ng gwash sila, tapos ang mga labas na labas na beki ay wiz mka sight ng sex life Ahyyy, kaloka!!!

  18. shannen said on 12-01-2009

    Poor women… and they think marriage is the answer to everything.

  19. carl said on 16-11-2008

    To the letter sender, are you sure you’ve learned your lessons? are you really aware of other’s feelings now? if you are, how come you’re still seeing this guy, regardless of your wife getting hurt?!!! you’re right, you don’t have to apologize to us for your selfishness, kasi you owe your apologies to your wife!!! All I hope now is that she finds out the truth about you and your apalling practices, and eventually, leave you to find happiness with a real man, with balls!!! kadiri ka!!! if its true that your boy is hot and goodlooking, then sobrang tanga nya for falling for someone like you, you both don’t know when to stop, in pursuit of happiness, you both are hurting someone else!!! and what’s sad is, ok lang sa inyo pareho… grow some conscience guys!!! tama ipaglaban ang pagmamamahal, but in this case, sobrang mali dahil you’re still committed!!! what comes around goes around!!! in short, KARMA!!!

  20. john said on 10-11-2008

    i want to meet up the two guys here involved. i like their story.  paki email naman sa akin migs yung contact details nila. ask nalang permission if ok lang sa kanila na makuha ko contact details nila.. discreet married guy here. thanks

  21. Mr. Miller said on 30-10-2008

    well, maganda ang story at kapanipanilwal. Mahirap lang talagang ipaintindi sa iba na nagkaroon na ng iba’t ibang level ang pakikipagrelasyon. Seguro nga merong magsasabi na unfair ka sa ibang concerned party (asawa, anak at kung sino sino pa) pero,  di ba pwedeng mag enjoy ka na may ibang ka relationship (sexual man o emotional) na walang na aapektuhan so long as it is discreet and will not cause any trouble? Sa sitwasyohn mo ngayon, tama ka, it remains to be seen.  Pero kagaya ng nangyari sa iyo, in the long run ma iinvolve din ang emosyon at darating ang time na may papaboran ka na sa paghati-hati mo ng time at ng atensiyon. True, mahirap magkaroon ng maraming katauhan sa iisa nating mundo, but if we can? why not? di ba? Good Luck. I wish mahaba ang maabot ng continuation ng story mo.

  22. jose said on 21-10-2008

    the story sound from a backyard….kinda ridiculous…

  23. Mr. Fletcher said on 12-10-2008

    OO nga, i believe your story at bilib  din ako sa yo. Hindi malinaw kung ano ang say ng asawa mo sa kwentong ito, dahil ito ay kwento mo lang at ng naging karelasyon mo. Napaka swerte mo naman kung  bale wala lang sa asawa mo at sa iyo na ganito ang sitwasyon. Sana nga di rin magising ang asawa mo at malaman ang katotohanan tungkol sa iyo at di ka rin kainisan ng mga anak mo sa lifestyle mo. Di tayo pwedeng tumagal na nakatira sa dalawang magkaibang mundo. Good luck.

  24. boy said on 11-10-2008

    Brett Mycles is already dead, i think the guy in the pic is brett. Died of CHF.

  25. Jay said on 09-10-2008

    Change is possible   please  visit  http://www.bagongpagasa.org

  26. dazedblu said on 08-10-2008

    no matter if the story is true.. but this is really a so-so story, i dunno.. at the back of my mind it’s sounds off the beat, but good luck to this guy XD peace.

  27. hersh said on 08-10-2008

    little fish..
    same here.. similar case with me younger first time nya ma in love gay,., weve been goin tru a lot of challeges..most men/ gays now are into sex.. sex is everywhere tapos lahat gusto ng long term. wtf.. by nature malikot kce ang mga gays eh..tapos halot laht ng gays sa pinas walng steady partner. mga maniac kce eh

  28. Little Fish said on 08-10-2008

    Somehow, I can relate to the story of Mike…ang kaibahan lang, my lover is 15 years younger than me…a Top…a womanizer…a player. He adores me and love me the way he loves me. Kaya kong tiisin at maghintay sa kanya kahit wala akong hintayin in the end. That is love…..unconditional love!

    Poor me? Nope….lucky me and blessed me!

    Simply because….I have found a love that is beyond sex itself.

  29. Cris said on 08-10-2008

    Hi Mike!

    I just hope you (and the other “straight-acting” married men out there) be fair with women, and be honest with them, too. Hate to say it, but you’re giving gays a bad name. (And you’re giving those men named Mike a bad reputation. Just so you know, my boyfriend’s name is Mike.) 

  30. minda said on 07-10-2008

    can you please annul your marriage to your wife now?
    papakasal ka unfaithful ka naman. mahiya at maawa ka sa asawa mong babae. she deserves better.

  31. xiancoyman said on 06-10-2008

    Very Humble, Honest and Inspiring. yet got to admit we cant always have it all. I’m hope and pray that everything turn out fine for all of you.

  32. kape said on 06-10-2008

    i must agree with this last comment. i too had been hooked not because of anything else but the existence of such a site which may actually tend to be a supprt group for those who can’t be out quite yet. but at times. i’m frustrated by how some blokes tend to be a bit dismissive and judgmental…

    oh well.

    as for mike, i admire your courage to share this story. i really just hope all goes well 🙂

  33. krucial said on 06-10-2008

    Mike,
    1 word… SELFISH! 😉

  34. john said on 05-10-2008

    I was googling for naughty stuff and had no awareness of manilagayguy.net. Stumbling upon this story, I felt nice not because of the tale it tells. It’s the comments and the existence of such a site(sensible gay site). There are those who say this is a unique story while many say that this is common. Others pass their judgement as “opinions” while some are bored yet they choose to still comment just to say that. I was entertained with those who tried to sound witty and opinionated only to miserably fail by writing in a language they obviously are not proficient with. Nonetheless I think I will be coming back for more because there are just so many brilliant gays who CAN write. I’m glad may ganitong site pala sa Manila. (*ignorante*) I shall explore this site some more… And to Mike, natawa lang ako kasi sobrang cliché ng name mo in my so-called romantic gay life. 😀

  35. danjay said on 05-10-2008

    bading na badng!

  36. lester said on 05-10-2008

    hohummm…zzzzz…inantok ako sa kwento….

  37. Juan said on 05-10-2008

    come to think of it.

    it’s unbelievably selfish. HAHAHA

    goodluck! And you know what people say..and what diether also “coined”

    KARMA’S A BITCH! 😉

  38. iamtheguy said on 05-10-2008

    Stop it..! Ako po yung ‘batang ‘yon’… (joke) kc 29 xa ako 23 manila (top ako).. ehehe.. Hirap naman talaga pag nahulog na ang loob mo sa isang taong handa mo nang ipaglaban at isakripisyo kahit ano tas malalaman ikaw pala ang di niya kayang ipaglaban… wahahaha.. (kung makapagsalita kala mo may karanasan na, wala naman… hahaha!) Open ako for sex. Also hoping to find the real one. 😉

  39. aherm said on 05-10-2008

    sa letter sender:

    baklang manloloko!

    patanggal mo na yang balls mo wala namang silbi. makipaghiwalay ka muna dun sa babae.
    Nakakahiya ka.

  40. Louie said on 04-10-2008

    I’ve been in the closet all my life…It is hard, masikip, mainit, malamig…I sometimes wish na may magbukas ng pinto para makakita ako ng liwanag pero takot din ako sa liwanag baka ako mabulag. Late na para sa akin ang lumabas pa, marami ng taong hindi ako kilala, hindi ko nais na makilala ako…Look back…sayang bakit ba hindi, bakit ba masakit ang dikta ng tao..Mabigat hindi masaya ang panandaliang makasariling kaligayahan. I have a family but my family does not have me. Dala ko na siguro to hanggang kamatayan.. o hanggang sa may magbukas ng pinto para ako maliwanagan….

  41. ef said on 04-10-2008

    so touching nanm nad inspirng..heheheh welll gud luck to ur relationship with him..make na di ma caught ni MRS..heheheh

  42. ed said on 04-10-2008

    heard a lot of similar stories…nothing spectacular, what new?

  43. rustcell said on 04-10-2008

    And the ridiculous just keeps piling up … eto pa’ng dalawa, isa gustong ‘ibigay’ sa kanya ang lalaki, may matching e-mail pa (I mean–for crying out loud!), yung isa naman with matching inventory of people he’s slept with. Provinciano rin ako and, sorry, it’s tacky, quintessential ‘TMI’. JMHO.

  44. rustcell said on 04-10-2008

    So what exactly is the problem? The guy in question has managed to cultivate a real heart? Still doubtable. Sorry, but all these closet stories are getting old. I can just skip this, true, but I’m also entitled to voice out my opinion. 🙂  Kawawa ang asawa. It’s not just between ‘you and your God’, it’s mostly between you and your wife, the cheater and the cheated upon. OMG, just imagine the filth you bring from all those guys then to hers. Sorry for being harsh, JMO.

  45. jeffrey said on 04-10-2008

    bro kung d ka seryoso sa kanya, puede ibigay mo na cya sa akin, naghahanap kc ako ng serious relationship, nand2 ako ngaun  sa alberta canada, i am planning to go home by dec or january next year,,,here is my email address  jeffreycooldude@yahoo.com thanks and hope we can meet pag uwi ko

  46. Juan said on 04-10-2008

    oh dear. I was in this kind of relationship few months back. I was the younger guy in the relationship.
    But the guy I was dating and well…fucking at the same time said he loved me but wanted me out of his life. Labo, but he’s been wanting to see me again, but didn’t say yes to any of his invite. He was an asshole and he expected me to leave him for someone else. gulo talaga. well, I loved him sincerely, and most likely i still do, but I don’t think I still want to be with him. HAHA nagshare daw.

    anyway, that was an interesting letter and helped me see the other side of the story.. jerks know how to love din pala. hehehe 😉

  47. Hey! said on 03-10-2008

    sana ako rin… mahanap ko na at matapos na ang paghahanap… hehe!
    anyone out there? raou_05@yahoo.com

  48. sapphire said on 03-10-2008

    wow, gay pilot ang cute naman………

  49. Jojo Narciso said on 03-10-2008

    I used to be in the closet.  The people in my company are always taking behind my back.  Now that I am out…. I am proud to be gay and proud to be a respectable gay pilot of Philippine Airlines

  50. d said on 03-10-2008

    ode to Infidelity. 

  51. Zang said on 03-10-2008

    ayoko sa mga ganitong istorya, nasasaktan ako. ako kasi yung type na si “batang iyon”

  52. jy said on 03-10-2008

    The model is the late Rob Sager a.k.a. Brett Mycles. He died last year of heart failure. Got this from wikipedia

  53. sharlot said on 03-10-2008

    common story! bata kasi!

  54. chocolate cake said on 03-10-2008

    improving ang writing skills ng lola natin in fairness

  55. IamWhoIam said on 03-10-2008

    ang gwapo ng featured hunk on this story, only thing made me interested..

    hanggang ngayon, ang dami pa ring DENIAL na bakla na handa manakit ng damdamin ng iba para s sarili nilang interest. sabagay , tama nga “lasunan” ang itawag sa mga kwento na ganito, lasunin ang asawa or GF para bulagin sa isang kasinungalingan na straight ka, lasunin at itatak sa utak ng gay BF na masculine at macho  ka, kasi di ka nag papabottom ( hindi ako naniniwala na may magtatagal na karelasyon na true straight sa bakla, so bakla is bakla. period.), and finally lasunin ang sarili mo sa totoo mong pagkatao, kasi duwag ka sa sasabihin ng society,family and friends.

    Well, enjoy your own POISON, SNAKE.. 

  56. jed said on 03-10-2008

    madrama… dinaig pa nitoang “iisa pa lamang” ni ate claudine..

  57. gandara samar said on 03-10-2008

    hmmm.. mike you are really unfair sa asawa mo, unless you tell her the truth! At least
    alam ng boylet mo na may sabit ka kaya kasama din siya sa mga kasalanan mo.
    Usap na lang tayo, ayoko ng sex…malay mo magdecide ka iwan silang dalawa para
    masaya tayo..hahahahaha

  58. Reza said on 03-10-2008

    hey mike! karma is a bitch! and im the bitch! hahahah

  59. ving said on 03-10-2008

    hayzzz another fiction…

    :yawn:

  60. rod said on 03-10-2008

    Hindi ako sang-ayon sa sitwayon nyo ngayon mike, isipin mong mabuti ang kalagayan mo ngayon? may tanong ako sayo, kung papipiliin ka kanino mo gusto mag stay? sa family mo o jan sa bagong minamahal mo? Sabi mo nasaktan ka nung nasaktan mo yung bata dahil sinabi mong may sabit ka? Eh what if malaman ng wife mo na may sabit ka pero dis time sa lalaki? di ba masasaktan din siya? And sa pagkakataong ito, masasaktan ka rin kaya dahil nasanktan mo ang asawa mo? Now, why we let in these kind of circumstances in our life, this very complicated situation..Honestly, i can say that you are selfish mike! hindi mo iniisip ang kapakanan ng asawa at mga anak mo, and even ng batang karelasyon mo ngayon.. tama yung sinabi ng isang quote na nabasa ko sa bible (1 Cor. 10:23), “lahat ng bagay ay matuwid, pero hindi lahat ng bagay ay nararapat”..thats all mike, and sorry kung masakit yung ibang mg binitawan ko.

  61. monlab said on 03-10-2008

    I think the model’s name is Brett Mycles.

  62. luis said on 03-10-2008

    oo, realistic yung story ni mike pero come’on , don’t be a hippocrate. don’t feel sorry for things you chose to do. sooner or later you’ll broke this kid’s heart unless you opt to stay with him and leave your wife. can you do that? like is about choices and taking risks. do you even care if you hurt other people when you’re perfectly happy with the one you love?

  63. george said on 03-10-2008

    hmmm sorry. kawawa ang wife mo Mike.

  64. Rommel said on 03-10-2008

    Dyosko tumataas ang kilay ko sa lifestyle mo ateng. Cge kung san ka masaya basta make sure you always pratice safe sex kawawa naman ang asawa mo. In fairness pag uwi ko pilipinas i bottom mo ako. ching.

  65. darkly said on 03-10-2008

    this is just so wrong in so many levels. i think you are very selfish and self-involve. grow-up and get your act together already. since you are most likely going to do what you want to do anyway, what is the point of this letter?

  66. Simon said on 03-10-2008

    this will make an effective indie film! LOL.

    but well, bottom line here is… dont play games… coz when you do, someone is bound to lose (and pray hard it’s not you).. but one way or another, you’ll always have a piece of realization, and it’s funny how unexpected people make you recognize this… pero sana, take everyone into consideration… like in this case – the younger search-is-over guy, the poor-out-of-the-picture wife, and yes, yourself, phlegmatic-almost-numb mike. LOL

    it takes a wink of an eye to see the beauty of pain, and consequently value people and life.

    (wala lang, nanggugulo lang, napadaan lang hehe)

  67. broken_heart said on 03-10-2008

    I know how u feel…. Ive broken a young guy’s heart when i was on vacation in the Philippines. He wanted me, i sort of liked him. If things were not as complicated, we could have been a couple. He was a very sad boy,… and i knew i could take all the sadness away. That broke my heart too.

  68. Rico Mambo said on 03-10-2008

    na bore ako

  69. Bj said on 03-10-2008

    Mike,
    You are unfair!
    That’s all! Bahala ka, karma is there!
    Baka ma-out karma ka na, ma-out bitched ka pa!
    Ha ha ha!

  70. skittles said on 03-10-2008

    yeah nga sino ba yung guy sa pic? his face is so beautiful lol 😉

  71. Fabrice said on 03-10-2008

    Sino ba yung guy sa pic? Mas interesado ako dun sa guy sa pic kesa sa story. Haha!

  72. bangagboi said on 03-10-2008

    is the boy named joel?

  73. Lyndon said on 03-10-2008

    mmmm coool… very unique ah.. well wla ka nmn atang nasasakatan na tao eh siguro nasa saknila nlng un kung kinakarir ka tlga nila eh di mo nmn ata sila kinarir eh ung mga nkasex mo he he and well siguro nkahanap ka ng katapat mo mike lolz yes korek ka dyn maraming gwapo! ha ha

  74. imladris said on 03-10-2008

    Yeah, who’s that guy in the pic?  Is he Flip?

    Regardless, to the married guy, Mike, as I read your letter, I sense it’s all about you.  What about your wife?  Shouldn’t she be with someone who’s honest, devoted and most of all, faithful??  Just a thought…

    Thing in life is that we can’t have it both ways.

  75. passer said on 03-10-2008

    hindi ba dead na yun model sa pic?

  76. john carlo said on 03-10-2008

    well, pwede to pang indie film ang story na to.  although parang napanood ko na. sana naman sa mga real gay story ay d naman sumentro sa puro sex na lang. wala bang true story na hindi involve masyado ang sex? alam ko na parte un pero sana ung kakaiba. Dun naman kay mike, maawa ka naman sa asawa mo. pano kaya kung mabaliktad kayo ng sitwasyon? alam ko na ayaw mong makarma balang araw dahil sa kataksilan  na ginagawa mo sa asawa mo. give her naman some respect, alam mo naman babae din ang nanay mo. wala masama kung maging choice mo ang maging straight acting o ang maglihim sa iyong asawa pero alam natin at alam ng Diyos na may mali sa mga ginagawa mo. wag mo na sanang intayin pa na may masaktan pa.

  77. Anathema said on 02-10-2008

    Well,we have some similarities,…i’m cold hearted straight-acting bi,..i’m 24 years old.. I never had sex with transvestite nor obvious bi/gays.. i love having sex with men,…just sex,no emotion(s) involved…I had sex with 154 filipino men,…28 filipina, 16 foreign men of diffirent nationalities, and 4 european girls of different nationalities,…i have steady girlfriend(half french/half german)…i’ll be coming down to manila in may 2009,for just two weeks vacation,…hope we can have chat but no sex,..just friendly chat….sharing with our shenanigans,lol!!!
    Post Scriptum:  I’m pinoy,certified promdi,co’z i was raised by my grandmother in our province…

  78. hello said on 02-10-2008

    I’d have to agree with Dig. This is the most authentic thing I’ve ever read here. And the writing’s not bad too.

  79. Ed said on 02-10-2008

    This is a “soap opera” in the making

  80. Ed said on 02-10-2008

    Mike,
    Happens all the time, (in the closet), with spouse and kids, living a double life, then it happens- you fall in love. You are living a “soap opera”. Either relationship has to end, but which one?

  81. Dig said on 02-10-2008

    I’ll be honest. I only go to this site when I need to get my rocks off on shirtless men. When I do read the entries, it’s about whiny little gay men crying about how oppressed because daddy didn’t hug them enough, or exaggerated BS encounters with men which, in reality, involve paying two grand as foreplay.

    But THIS is the most real thing I’ve read here. Astig ka, Mike.

  82. tita glo said on 02-10-2008

    who’s the model?

  83. bazny said on 02-10-2008

    this is funny. that’s all

  84. Gabe said on 02-10-2008

    As you’ve said it is really different.  It requires a certain degree of sadomasochism to put your self in this type of complicated situation which happens quite often especially with the bi’s. Yeah bro, it’s because we want to get the best of both worlds even if we become unfair to other people. It’s human nature–act of self preservation, no need to explain. It can only be reversed when you find and love somebody more than you love yourself.  So far, your like standing on a  thin sheet of ice on a lake.

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