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Hello MGG readers! Here’s a letter from Marvin, a 26-year-old fellow reader from the Middle East. He’s in a predicament involving a 20-year-old guy based in the Philippines, thus the title “Kuya-Bunso Relationship.” Help me help Marvin by sharing your thoughts regarding his situation. Read on.

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Hi there Migs,

ASSALAMALAIKUM!

Greetings from the Middle East.

Tagal ko nagbabasa sa page mo, and I really appreciate your thoughts and ideas specially helping others!

Im Marvin (not my real name), 26 yo. presently nsa middleast wrking as administrative personnel in a US based company.

I would say maganda yung work ko d2, good company, money making is also good and ung position ko supervisory pa.

I thank god for all these blessings at my age.

Basically, di ko pa tanggap na akoy ganito honestly.

di rin alam ng family ko at mga friends ko.

Most of my friends were professional’s n din.

Politician’s ung background ng family namen.

Meron din kmi business at masasabi ko tlga swerte n din kmi sa buhay.

Umalis aq sa pinas year 2007.

Nag abroad ako simply because, i want to earn money from my own. ayokong maging mayaman na galing ang yaman sa family ko.

People do respect me aside from my family background,

I’ve earned masters degree, and was employed b4 sa pinas sa mga respetado at malalaking company.

Was a dj b4, radio commentator, college instructor, product specialist and now an OFW..

Had gf b4 around 3 years, from then wla na, puro nlng flings sa mga gurls kya even my closest friends di ngka idea bout me as well as my family.

the way i act, mssbi ko am flexible, depende sa tao na kaharap ko.

the way i dress myself, un din very flexible and professional too. kya ung mga tao sa paligid ko they never had d idea bwt me. cant help but really, am still confused to it.

Here it goes.

I meet macky, ( hes really straight) past 5 years na that time sa mnla p me ng wwrk, he was 15 at that time.

Parang nging kapatid ko n cya during that time, as in un lng ang relasyun nmin- the kuya-bunso relationship.

Dahil sa nature ng job ko at that time, nagkakalayo kmi and thru txt and call nlng ung communication nmen. Until nwla nlng bigla ung contact nmen, because of my job- busy and khit saan nlng ako nka assign, Luzon-visayan and Mindanao.

But I always remember him.

Year 2007, umalis na ako ng bansa.

At un ngka trabaho agad in gods will and of kurs sa diskarte n din sa buhay abroad.

3 months after, was trying to call on his previous number kptid nya babae ung nkasagot, dahil dun nkuha ko ung bago nyang nmber. Nag kausap kmi at un nga nabigla xa ng tumawag aq sa knya. Nalaman k din from him na papa nya andito din dw sa middleast, sbi ko anu wrk nya? Sbi nghhnap p dw, through my initiative natulungan ko papa nya at nagkaroon nga ng wrk sa company naming as company driver. From then ung papa na nya lage sumusundo skin tsaka hatid na din.

Nagging close kmi ng papa nya.

Pakilala ko sa papa nya na ung anak nya at pinsan ko magkabarkada at un naman din paliwanag ni macky dun sa knyang papa.

Gumanda buhay ng papa nya.

Un nga lang di lahat suportado kc nga broken family cla.

Isang beses lng aq nakapagpadala ni macky at cia mismo nakiusap dhil kelangan lng dw tlga nya.

Di xa lage humihingi, nhhya p nga. Di alam ng papa nya tungkol smen.

Di naman nging kami, bsta un parin turing ko sa knya same before.

Last month was in pinas, my vacation. Frst time na bakasyun kc dati pumupunta lng ako sa ibang bansa kc nga bakasyun nmen every 6 months lng, so in 1 year time bali dalawang beses kung baga uuwi.

1 week b4 sa bakasyun ko, was calling him, sinabi ko s knya na mgbbksyun ako.

Natuwa naman sya. Di nga man lng marunong magsasabi kung anu gusto nyang pasalubong, bstat importante lng daw mgkkta kmi, un lng ang reaksyun nya.

Nsa pinas n ako. After 3 days ngkita n kmi. Sbi nya dun nlng kmi mgkta lapit sa condo nla sa pasay. At un after 5 years ngkta n kmi ulit naninibago n aq sa knya, laki n nya at tlagang pang hunk na ung katawan nya, un dw nagging libangan nya sa gym kc nga nag stopped na sya fr skol.

Gimik, gala at shopping un gang mga routine namen dalawa. But ni mnsan dko xa ginalaw at alam ko di na rin nya gusto mangyari pa ung mga nangyayari smen dati.

Binibili ko lahat ng gamit na gusto nya at un nga nhhya p rn cya.

Nag stay ako sa condo nla dahil nga sa request ng papa nya at least man lng dw makasama ko mga anak nya. Me kunting padala din xa para sa mga anak nya.

Wla mama nla nsa abroad din. Kuya nya at pinsan lng nya ang nsa condo nla. Ung ate nya nag asawa na.

Was there around 3 days sa condo nla.

Feeling k tlga mga tunay ko silang kapatid, grocery at lagging puno ung ref nla. One time gimik kmi lahat, saya tlga.

2days nlng paalis n aq. Pumunta aq ulit sa knla xa lng andun sa condo nla.

Binigyan nya aq ng mga tagalong nab ala para dw libangan ko dun sa abroad at ung iba mga mp3 pa.

Cant help but, niyakap ko xa, di nmn xa nagalit sbi ko sa knya dalawang araw nlng blik n aq sa abroad im sure ma miss kta. Sagot nya ako din at nag kiss xa sa noo ko.

At smack ko din xa sa lips nya. Di nmn nagalit.

Hanggang sa umalis na ako migs, sa bahay nmen, honestly malungkot aq sobra, dami kung mamimiss sa pinas lalo na sa knya.

Hinatid nya aq sa airport. Sa taxi p lng migs ibang iba na nrrmdaman ko, sobrang lungkot at npaka tahimik ko at that time. sbi ko hwag k n bumaba sa taxi pra balik kana ulit. Payag naman cya. Bumaba n aq sa taxi have my extra pa around 5k binigay ko na sa knya at sbi ko bayaran nya taxi at keep na nya ung xtra pang allowance nya sa gym.

Till I reach middleast again. Namamaga ung mata ko sa kkiyak sa eroplanu, ngyun k lng to nrrmdaman sa buhay ko migs, parang gusto ko everytime nkkta ko sya lage.

My doubts and questions.

Takot ako migs mllman lalo na sa papa nya.

Ganun din xempre sa family ko.

PAANO BA ANG MGA GANITO??

Sabi ko sa papa nya, ihanap k nlng din ng mapapasukan c macky d2 kesa wla naman mangyayari sa buhay nya sa pinas, sabi naman ng papa nya, un din dw ipakiusap nya saken tungkol nga dun ke macky.

KAYA KO MIGS E SPONSOR C MACKY, KASO MGSSMA KMI SA BAHAY? DI NMN PWEDE DUN SA PAPA NYA KC COMPANY ACCOMODATION UN.

Sa ngayun migs, mssbi k sa sarili ko n gusto ko n din xa in so many aspects sa buhay.

KUNG SAKALI MAN MIGS, GUGUSTUHIN NYA RIN KYA NA MAGING KAMI??

Hes just 20 migs, and im 26, kuya-bunzo relationship lng ba to nararamdaman ko?

OR JUST LONGING LANG CGURO KC DATI PA GUSTO KO TLAGA MAGKAROON NG KAPATID NA BUNSO, KASO NGA LANG AKO UNG PINAKA BUNZO SAMEN.

Masaya ako pag kasama ko xa migs. Based on our sex history, honestly isang beses ko lng xa nagalaw. Way back year 2005 pa un.

Gusto k tlaga xa kunin na d2 para kasama k na xa, and to guide him as always sa right path para naman gumanda buhay nya. Problema k lng tlga dun sa father nya. HOW CAN I EXPLAIN TO HIS DAD??

Mag ffile ako migs ng leave for nxt month around 15 days lng ako sa pinas, me aasikasuhin lng ako sa pinas at the same time 21st bday ni macky. Gus2 ko andun aq at mag out of town kmi somewhere in visayas. Fixed n tlga plan ko.

TAMA BA TO MIGS??

Gulo tlaga migs ng utak ko ng dahil lng sa KUYA-BUNZO RELATIONSHIP NA TO.

THIS IS JUST FUNNY TO OTHERS BUT REALLY, AM CONFUSED TO THIS.

PLEASE tulung naman migs, I really need your answers and ideas to these.

I believe kasi in your thoughts lalo na sa mga ganitung buhay please.

thnx

Marvin

Comments (58)

  1. Jim said on 27-03-2016

    NAKARELATE AKO PERO Y0N NGA LANG SA AMING DALAWA SI BUNSO ANG NAGKAGUSTO SA AKIN JAJAJAJA. XAME ANG MGA NANGYARI EXCEPT NA MAGKALAYO NA KAYO NGAYON AT WALA PA NANGYARI SA AMIN

  2. Khangkhurnetto said on 18-06-2011

    Do not over-think things, if you are happy then you must be doing the right and if not at least you are happy di ba?

  3. geek-o said on 13-07-2010

    if you love him, go. sooner or later tatanda tayo… hindi maibabalik ang mga pagkakataong lumagpaas… maaaring mali, pero maaring tama din, that’s when you take the risk… gawin mo ang pagkakamaling ito, do that mistake with him… and when you’re already at your deathbed, you’ll say to yourself “yeah, it might be a mistake, but at least no hang-ups, no what if’s” with a genuine smile.

    God bless

  4. Maldito said on 04-05-2010

    Kuya marvin if you can read this can you send me email at kenji.maldito@yahoo.com

    waiting for your reply.

    thanks

  5. marvin said on 25-09-2009

    Hello sa lahat. this is marvin (author sa story na to)
    SALAMAT SA INYONG LAHAT!!!
    For your ideas,comments and views. appreciate it, REALLY!!!

    Anyway— i stop na with macky. na realized ko lang kasi. i mean di ko alam yun– bsta one day na lamang after sa work ko— ung sarili ko na mismo ang nag decide to stop him anymore.
    kya nung nagbakasyun ako dyan sa pinas last month, nagulat na lang c macky kasi nga di na raw ako nagpapakita sa knya maski tumawag man lang daw ako na nsa pinas na ako during that time.. nalaman lng kasi nya from his dad. kya panay ang txt nya sa akin sa pinas.
    explain ko naman sa kanya lahat. nung una parang galit sya, yabang ko na raw- which is npaka bata parin ng mga ideas nya. bsta all throughwhile unti unti na getz din cguro nya ang lahat.

    MASAKIT AT MASAYA ako with my decision about macky.
    masasabi ko na isa sa mga mabigat na decision ang binitawan ko sa araw na yun.
    syempre nkakalungkot din minsan pero alam ko mawawala din ang mga ito balang araw.

    Again— SALAMAT SA INYONG LAHAT!!!

    MARVIN

    • lost_nurse said on 18-05-2011

      marvin,

      I really admire you for doing that, for waking up to the reality. Actually, similar thing happened din kasi sakin years ago when I was in Abu Dhabi. And bad thing is, I woke up too late and learned things the hard way. Sometimes, things that we thought started right doesn’t end well. We just have to reserve a little more love for ourselves kasi mawala man ang lahat, we still have something to hold onto. Now, I’m here in the Philippines trying to pick up pieces from that wrath. I’m still thankful na nangyari yun kasi it molded me to what I am now. It made me more cautious and wiser.
      Keep safe.

      Warm regards,
      lost_nurse
      (secondidentityrevealed@gmail.com)

  6. rian_dave said on 12-09-2009

    Hi Marvin,

    Ako na lang syotahin mo mabait gwapo hunk din kasi i go to the gym 4 times a week…hehehe

  7. brent said on 25-06-2009

    alam mo kuya, libog lang yan. try mo irelease yan, everytime na naiicip mong mahal mo sya, at makikita mo, mawawala rin ang mga ganyang concerns mo about him. try mo lang, effective sakin coz i have the same story as yours.

  8. codename: amino said on 18-06-2009

    Hi marvin, plan before yuo decide, and decide before you act…first and foremost, sa term ng mga bading, mahal mo si macky, dahil kakaiba ang tibok ng kepyas mo… no doubt about it. masasabi ko lang as ofw din… we dont hold our future here, lalo na ngaung global recession, anytime pwede kang i-dispatch pabalik ng pinas, kung mayaman ka sa inyo, well good,
    Una: kaya mo siyan i visit visa and finally find a job, its either he will stay with you or by companys accomodation, or worse, we will stay away from you. its his decision, otherwise. dont bother about his father, bastat di kayo na-caught in the act, alaws problem…
    Two: bata pa si Macky at straight kamo siya, i tell you ang TITLE ng mga OFW dito na BI-Straight relationship ay GAMITAN, ginagamit ka niya for all his needs, at gamitin mo rin siya for your sexual desires. hindi mo siya magiging iyo ng buong-buo for the rest of his life… meron akong friendship dito, tawag niya sa jowa niyang bata, KUYA, they spend too much time for thier relationhips as partners, he spent too much for him too, but in the end, babae parin ang pinili ni KUYA.
    THREE: when you feel like you want him, go for gold & glory, alam nman nating lahat na the relationship is always vary according to a situations.

    gawin mo ngayon ang gusto mong gawin baka pagsisihan mo, in fact nagsisisi ka nung umalis ka pabalik… wag mong isipin ang tatay niya o mga kapatid, wag mo ring isipin ang family mo, kahit ano pang mura at suklam at deprive ng family, ending di ka nila pababayaan. because of their unconditional love towards thier son/daughter.
    good luck. marami pa akong babasahing stories

  9. bounce said on 05-06-2009

    wala akong masabi kundi OMG!!!!!!!!!!! i was blushing the whole tim im reading the letter…even having goosebumps…

  10. pj said on 27-05-2009

    HAY NAKU NAKAKA IYAK, MARVIN MAKE UP YOUR MIND..
    KUNG GUSTO MO SI MACKY AS A BROTHER O DI SIGE PERO WAG MO NAMANG KAWAWAIN ANG SARILI MO……KUNG GUSTO MO SIYA MAGING LOVER THEN DO SO.WAG NA WAG KANG MATAKOT, YOU’RE OLD ENOUGH TO MAKE YOUR OWN DECISIONS IN LIFE.
    GANITO LANG YAN………
    IT’S NOW OR NEVER☺

  11. excel828 said on 18-05-2009

    Dear Marvin,

    Your going back to the Phils is really a big move (which might affect pa your job), I guess you should really be telling him about how you feel towards him and if he has the same feelings that is the only time you start working out on him working in the same place as yours and his father’s.
    Resolve one issue at a time. Who knows the first issue about his feelings toward you might just snap you out of your other issues dahil super straight naman pala siya at he desires for a hetero life. And you should be ready also about it dahil baka ikaw lang ang nag isip na he treats you more than his “kuya”
    This is just exactly one type of issue PLUs encounter in this lifetime. We have inuendos and fantasies that keep us from the realities of life.

  12. matt said on 13-05-2009

    Hmmmm, first things first… it is really obvious na gusto mo si Macky, (ang daming pwedeng sabihin at icomment jan) and that only leaves you with a few questions?

    1. What are you willing to risk?

    2. Are you willing to give up everything (as in everything) for that desire?

    3. Are you ready for all the possibilities?

    Hmmmm, think it over- answers sometimes lie on the place we least expected… amping pipol!!!

  13. geraldine said on 10-05-2009

    ano bayan, d ko maintindihan? all i can say is. ate haba ng hair mo.. ano? mai ng yari na pala sa inyo way back 2005? and 2007 ka umalis and 5 years kayo d nag kita? i mean time check if 2008 ka bumalis or 2009 dapat 2003 or 2004 dapat pa kaau hindi nag kita, if something happend in 2005? and then 2007 you left? HUH? you need consistency in your story. parang ayoko ng maniwala. anyway, follow your heart. landi mo, bat mo pa iieplain sa father nya eh masusuntok kalang ang bobita mo. HAHAHAHA can’t you just keep it as a secret baka ma patay padin si macky.

  14. Rapidfire said on 10-05-2009

    Felin qo mauubos lng pera ni marvin ky macky. .jejeje. .tas i doubt n straight sia,jejeje eh my pgkalandi ng pgkasulat eh. .tas sna ayusin lng ung pgkasulat. .profesional kpa nman as wat uv sed dba?

  15. Timothy said on 09-05-2009

    waaaaaaaaaaaaah!! may isa pang nanginggit!!! berns, pano nya nalaman na may gusto ka sa kanya? sinabi mo ba? kung oo ano reaksyon nya at first? nagbago ba pakikitungo nya sayo?

  16. Niel said on 08-05-2009

    berns,
    haba ng hair mo, parang gusto ko rin mag board sa inyo.

  17. berns said on 08-05-2009

    elow guys. ewan ko lang basta in love din ako now with a guy.kung totoo man o hindi ang kwentong ito para sa akin ang importante at nararamdaman kong may pag-ibig habang sinusulat ang istoryang ito…ang masasabi ko lang sa sender ay gawin mo lang kung ano ang gusto ng puso mo.minsan its worth maging bobo sa pag-ibig……haaaay we cant deny it sobrang sarap talagng magmahal at mahalin or para sa akin kahit hindi na lang ako mahalin basta mahal ko. ok lang….pwede naman yung ganun eh….basta na-aapreciate lang ng guy yung mga sakrip[isyo mo para sa kanya….alam mo mr sender dapat sabihin mo na sa kanya na mahal mo sya once and for all.aty wait mo kung ano ang reaksyon nya.at saka kana mag decide kung ipagpatuloy mo pa ang pag-ibig na yan or not. …..you know what in my case now…..may mahal ako ka boardmate ko xa……alam nya na mahal ko xa at alam ko na-appreciate din naman nya cguro…..kasama kami matulog, kumain, gumimik at mag simba. ….so ok lang feeling ko nga love nya rin ako hehehe..or kung hind man ok lang masaya an ako sa ganitong set-up…..

  18. RV65 said on 08-05-2009

    The guy in this thread who wrote the letter supposedly has a master’s degree but nonetheless communicates in text lingo…in writing?…amazing.

  19. Timothy said on 08-05-2009

    WAAAAAAAAAAH!!! HUHUHU!! SA TUWING MAGBABASA AKO DITO NAIINGGIT AKO SA MGA KWENTO NYO PATI KOMENTARY!!! NI MINSAN HINDI AKO NAGKAKABF O RELATIONSHIP SA KAPWA KO GUY PERO NAGKAGF NA AKO.. TORPE BA AKO??? I’M 19 NA AND I FEEL SO DEPRIVED OF GUYS!!! AYOKO NAMAN SA OUT GUYS. ANG TYPE KO DIN AY CLOSETED.. AT GUSTO KO PERSONAL, NOT THROUGH THE CYBERSPACE, PERO HOW CAN I EVER FIND A GUY DITO NA CLOSETED, MASCULINE NA WALANG BAHID? AYOKO IRISK ANG PAGOOUT KO SA TAONG HINDI KO NAMAN KAGAYA!! I’M NOT THAT GOOD-LOOKING BUT I AM A NICE PERSON. PANO BA TO? SA TUWING NAGPUPUNTA TALAGA AKO DITO I CAN’T HELP BUT TO PITY MYSELF AND BE ENVIOUS OF PEOPLE DITO NA MAY MGA JOWA JOWA!!! WAAAH HUHUHUHU

  20. Davidoff said on 07-05-2009

    Don’t second guess yourself, walang nakakaalam ng kasagutan, wag kang makinig kahit kanino dito, they are lying if they will tell you life will be a bed of roses, nobody knows that for sure, but we all deserve to be happy. But being happy is a personal choice/decision, hindi mo iyan makukuha sa guide or self help book, kahit ma sa mga payo ng kaibigan. You need to find out for your self. Sa panahong ito, sunggab lang kaagad, kung ayaw sa iyo, eh di ayaw, move on forget about it. There is someone for everyone! Just go for it, wag ng mag pagirl, unless mahilig ka sa drama sa buhay, ang paghihirap mo ay self imposed, you can snap out of it anytime if you want too, pero kung feel mong gumastos, there is no such thing as walang hinihinging kapalit, ang kapalit niya ay pagdurusa kung dimo man lang siya mahada, kaya hadahin mo na!

  21. Davidoff said on 07-05-2009

    Wag ka na mag pa girl. Sunggab na kaagad, kung ayaw eh di tapos na ang paghihirap mo! Naka meet na din ako ng 8 years younger (28 ako, 20 siya, pero malaking bulas siya kasi ibang lahi), out of town kami, walang pa girl girl, sunggab kaagad ako, gusto din naman pala ng mokong. Pero walang pera pera, wiz bayad sa sex ever. That was over 9 years ago, up to now, pa hadala pa din siya sa akin, kahit nag live-in na sila ng GF niya! at ako naman ay lumipas din ang kahibangan sa pagibig, booty call na lang.

    26 ka pa lang iha, madami ka pang ma mimeet.

  22. Nick said on 05-05-2009

    Get over your age difference. 6 years won’t matter a lot. I think your problem is being in the closet all these years. If you make your feelings plain to him as soon as possible, then whatever his reaction is will solidify whatever options you might have. If he rejects you, drop him like a rock. If he accepts you, tuwad agad.

  23. taekopink said on 05-05-2009

    musclehunk naman, compare:

    33 and 47 yrs old.
    vs
    20 and 26 yrs old.

    Kung 47 na si Marvin, di na sumulat dito sa MGG yan. hehehehe.

    Oops. nang-ookray lang po. lol. Peace =)

  24. musclehunk said on 04-05-2009

    marvin,

    i can relate to your story on vice versa situation. i have a relationship and who you believed 14 age gap namin. im 33 he’s 47 but were 8 years already and still counting.what i mean is age doesn’t matter if you love someone.and besides 6 years lng gap nyo.sundin mo tibok ng puso mo kung san ka masaya dun ka remember life is short and enjoy every moment of it.
    Goodluck…..

  25. nyelnyelko said on 04-05-2009

    Mare life is short… No but’s

  26. Pocholo said on 03-05-2009

    Marvin,

    Just be true to yourself. You are obviously in love with the guy and you seek to be more than his “brother”. Brothers do not fuck each other, right? Not even once.

    Do not make any assumption that the guy wants to be with you too (in the context of a homosexual relationship). He may simply be too young and too inexperienced to be involved emotionally and in such a complex setup.

    Personally I think it will be good for you and for the other guy to just open up yourself. If you get rejected, at least you know how you fared. If your love is accepted then plan with the guy – not plan the guy’s future all by yourself.

    Tama na ang confusion drama. You are such a drama queen. Be true, be bold and be objective.

  27. Tsinitoboy said on 03-05-2009

    Di na matatawag na kuya-bunso relationship ito kung may nangyari na pala before (incest alert!!! incest alert!!! hehehehe!!!) Para sa mga katanungan ni Marvin, kung kuya-bunso lang ba nararamdaman nya para kay Macky? Ang sagot, isang malaking hindi, obviously na he is still lusting for him, sprinkled with a dash of care & affection, it’s safe to say that he is viewing macky not as a brother but more of a lover, kaya stop na the confusion para di mabaliw.

  28. myargie22 said on 03-05-2009

    AND ONE MORE THING!

    DONT LET LUST eat YOU!
    Sabi mo kasi hunky na sya eh. AHAAHAHA

  29. myargie22 said on 03-05-2009

    IM NOT BEING Mean or anything…

    perohave u ever thought na ginagamit ka lang nya specifically on the financial aspect…kasi he knew din na may money ka…and sure ka ba na nahihiya sya? I agree na dapat ang LOVE 2 way relationship. There must be communication between you two…at dapat RECIPROCATED.

    I understand naman na ur missing something and gusto mo din magkapatid na bunso…pero di mo ba naisip na nadala ka lang din or ur just over infatuated? In our world, mahirap magcommit at mahirap malaman na totoo nga ung love. TRUST will always be a big issue for us.

    Im telling this kc madalas ganyan nangyayari sa akin. I love the person pero madalas sumasakay lang at aun ako nagpapakatanga…naniniwala naman. Bago mo ituloy ung plans mo. Sana maisip mo din ung mga hanging questions ko d2.

    and wag ka din magexpect masyado…kasi kapag naganswer ng No yan sau…naku sobrang masasaktan ka lang. Think of yourself too…WAG MO IBIGAY ANG LAHAT. Assess your feelings first…before blurting it out to someone.

    You could HELP HIM OUT kung gusto mo…patapusin mo sya magaral. Help him earn a college degree…diba.? Feeling ko mas ok un.

    I know ul not agree to some of my comments…kasi nandyan na din yang NARARAMDAMAN MO EH. I cant blame you…I’ve been there…Basta! THink twice bago ka magdecide. BE WISE!

    INGATZ ka dyan!

  30. Jason Romero said on 02-05-2009

    hi all pipz…

    i read on the comment of blood berry,,, it caught my attention basically on the name “blood berry” i have an alias nose bleed kaya yun hehehee

    sa comment though di nabasa lahat, sa haba ba naman diba… what touch my emotion is when you have the best of times and you savor it and you should enjoy it fully and when its over you have memories to remember when your alone …. ganda..

    sa story na eto om from abu dhabi nga pala,, just like that… sabi nya may nangyari na diba once in 2005. so y not fix the turmoils between the two of them. yung daddy hindi na kailangan malaman kung anu or what “close friend and thats it.. what matters is how the relationship as a kuya bunso / or as a couple survive and flourish here in middle east. i think dito sila dapat mag simula…

    another point you can teach macky to be independent and to stand on his own feet i think this will be your greatest role and your greatest contribution to the person you love or your feeling something with.

    ma salama
    jsn

  31. joerge said on 02-05-2009

    marvin,
    nabasa ko story mo, and its very complicated! i am not really sure kung mag aagree ang mga readers sa pananaw ko pero kung sa akin lang may mga bagay na dapat mo pang i assure about sa kanya, base sa nabasa ko, may nangyari lang sa inyo, pero walang love na involve maliban sa turing mo sa kanya bilang kapatid. kalingan mo munang malaman kung mahal ka din nya or kung may gf sya(wala kang nabanggit). willing ba syang isakripisyo and kridibilidad nya bilang isang lalaki,alang alang sau? ganunpaman, kung sakali man na mahal ko din nya, ang tulungan mo sya na makapunta jan sa UAE ay magandang paraan, kung maging kayo man, ilihim nyo na lang ang relasyon nyo sa tatay nya at magpanggap na matalik na kaibigan, gayong marunong ka naman na kung paano itago ang tunay mong sexualidad. isa pa, kng anjan sya malalayo sya sa mga babae lalo na sa gf nya, take note, kung may gf sya, mas mahirap ang sitwasyon, lalo na plano mo na pumunta sa 21st birthday nya, at im for sure ikaw ang taya. mamamatay ka lang sa selos kaya im hoping na wala. also kung ilihim nyo ang relasyon nyo at may makaamoy, ideny lang ng ideny, mabuking man ideny pa rin! kasi alam mo naman na ang relasyon na katulad natin ay hindi nagtatagal, kung sakali na magtagal man, may katapusan yan at hindi kayo habang buhay na magsasama. kaya ilihim nyo na lang, dumating man ang panahon na hindi na kayo makapagdeny, at malaman, nila maaring wala na din kayo. sa ganun, hindi na masyadong magpagusapan ng mga kaibigan at pamilya. ito ay pananaw ko lamang, nasa iyo pa rin ang desisyon, ikaw pa rin ang masusunod. kung nagdisisyon ka man kailangan mong panindigan at you have to face the consiquences!

    bagong kaibigan,

    joerge ng guam

  32. pura said on 02-05-2009

    my take on this.. do not take a leap of faith with this boy.. however it hurts, when you go back to manila for your vacation, do what you want but end it right there… the reason? this boy does not want the same things as you… he may never will.. you will just end up destroying the relationship that you have.. it did not work then, and it will not work now.. there are other fish in the sea, it shall be better to look for someone that you have no qualms in loving.

  33. jed said on 02-05-2009

    marvin, naranasan ko na din yan…mahirap ang kalagayan mo kaya kaylangan mo magkaroon ng diversional activities para hindi ka malungkot ng sobra…pasasaan bat magkikita din kayo…pero advise ko lang sayo, wag mo syang iisipin masyado at wag mong ikulong ang isipan mo sa kanya…give time for yourself…because in our life’s struggles, there are always things like this that comes our way…

    madamdamin pero kung iisipin natin, madali lang bigyan ng solusyon…problema nga lang, eh, iba iba ang pananaw ng bawat isa sa atin…

    marvin, i recommend you to read Orosa-Nakpil Malate, isang nobela ni Louie Mar Gangcuangco…kapupulotan mo ito ng madaming aral sa buhay…hindi sya masyado related sa kwento mo, pero maganda! sigurado akong mata-touch ka!

  34. Dodong said on 02-05-2009

    Pang digital film ang storya.

    Marvin hindi mo kinwento kung anung naganap sa inyo ni macky. Anu ang reaction nya. Anu ang behavior nya after. Base naman sa naging takbo ng storya, nung bumalik kana, mukha namang ok lang kay Macky na ay naganap sa inyo at kahit anu pa siguro ang balakin mo ay magpapaubaya sya.

    Ang mahalaga siguro, magtapat ka sa kanya at alamin ang kanyang feelings. Sabihin ang mga plano mo sa kanya na pagtrabahuin sa ME. Saka mo na problemahin yung sa tatay nya. Isa isa lang muna.

  35. Ares in UAE said on 02-05-2009

    Marvin,

    Bakit kaya hindi mo muna tanungin si Macky kung ano ba talaga feelings nya sayo?

    Its clear that you have feelings for him and that you want him to have a better life. Pero ano ang mas matimbang? Kasi parang gusto mo tumulong mainly to satisfy your personal interests. I wouldn’t say it’s bad cause it isn’t pero it isn’t good too. Not for you especially. Kasi in the end ikaw lang ang masasaktan.

    Kung gusto mo tumulong, then do so without expecting anything in return. It’s pretty obvious you are. Kasi if you’re not hoping things will become romantic between you two, hindi ka na magtatanong.

    Tsaka truth always sets us free. Accepting yourself will make you happier. Lahat ng bading can attest to that.

    Im here in Dubai, email me if you need someone to talk to.

  36. Paurong.com said on 02-05-2009

    issue na ba noon pa sa inyong dalawa ung “galaw” thing? i believe what you want namang mangyari e for the better end of macky. i hope everything will work out right in the end.

  37. maccallister said on 02-05-2009

    mejo di lang malinaw yun sex part,di ko masyado nasundan if how did it go,kung nagustuhan ba niya or what to say na gay din siya or something,alam mo na may mga straight guys kasi na napatol sa gays just to get laid.

    you just have to justify muna with him na gusto ka din niya as bf,bago nyo problemahin yun sa dad niya.

  38. kyle said on 02-05-2009

    naku naman. tamad ako magkwento sayo kuya marvin. nakakasuka minsan ung mga pagpapanggap naten na kuya-bunso turingan. kasi naman for sure one of you may feelings noh. may be both pa nga din eh.

    nakakainis alam mo ba. kasi pag ganyan ung situation, ung subconscious mo eh nag eexpect ng something in return dahil sa turingan nyong dalawa. it will definitely hurts kung di magiging kayo. pero naisip mo din ba na bakit brotherly love ang sugar coat ng feelings mo.

    sabagay naisip ko na din na baka un ang parang maging appetizer sa mas malawak na plans in the future noh. pero isa lang masasabi ko kuya, sabi nga ng bestfriend ko, “that is one dead end.”

    falling in love with (straight, assume absolute) sibling, relative, someone kuya-bunso situation, a bestfriend, a classmate or close friend or kahit sino pa na straight (lalake ha), katapusan na ng gusto mong umpisan na kung ano man. kasi dead end nga di ba.

    i’ve been with the same situation and it f*cking sucks. damn. i had regrets falling in love with this kuya of mine (i already moved on, coz i now believe he is one hell of a dirtball). and one friend din tho i know he accepts me (sana) for who i am (i mean i am not a straight type of guy on certain actions, choice of words or moods).

    un na kuya, tinatamad ako nito pero, dead end na yan. basta ano man mangyari, may isang bagay na mawawala sayo. kung naging kayo at naghiwalay may mawawala. kung hindi maging kayo, yung mga pinaplano mo maglalaho din.

    ingat kuya.

  39. taekopink said on 02-05-2009

    Professional’s
    Politician’s

    ang masasabe q lang, mahilig k sa apostrophe ‘S. tama ba spilling ng apostrophe q?

  40. theo0629 said on 02-05-2009

    I say, try to talk to yourself kasi ikaw lang makakaanswer ng question na yan! Be brave and strong. But be gentle and wise as well. hehehe 😉

    There’s no doubt na mahal mo si Macky. Kung kaya mong panindigan ang try to be his boyfriend, take that risk. I just hope he feels the same way towards you. If so, then go for it. Panindigan mo.

  41. codeblue2187 said on 02-05-2009

    ahmm.. its better if you ask macky first bago sa daddy nya.. kasi baka mamya ikaw lang pala ang may feelings talaga at xa naman eh kapatid lang talaga ang turing sau… sbi mo nga kasi he’s really straight diba… hindi ko rin kasi masyadong magets ung main problem mo kaya un lang ang masasabi ko sori..

  42. jimg29 said on 02-05-2009

    @killersmile, kung patayin kaya kita, anong problema? text-speaking man ang medium ng communication ay madali ding maintindihan. TIPID PA SA KA-EK-EKAN!

    @marvin, sundin mo ang LECHENG PUSO, EXPLAIN DADDY!yunyon!

  43. greatest said on 01-05-2009

    sakit sa mata. yun lang. so we can feel your pain, gets? kasi nakakaloka ang text speak mo teh.

  44. Cedric said on 01-05-2009

    Galing ka sa maykaya (and I presume educated) na pamilya tapos may master’s degree ka tapos naging college instructor ka tapos ganyan ka magsulat?

    And you’re working for, what, a US-based company pa? Tapos ganyan ang grammar, spelling, etc. mo?

    Sorry, but it just doesn’t make sense… Parang ang hirap paniwalaan tuloy.

    Just my opinion…

  45. killersmile said on 01-05-2009

    Walang kwentang story at naka-text speak pa yung sender. PLEASE TYPE IN WHOLE WORDS. Masakit sa mata magbasa ng text speak pag nasa paragraph.

    MIGS: Sana ni-reject mo na lang tong sulat na to maraming sentences na walang sense.

  46. rodier said on 01-05-2009

    hey i’ve tried that!

  47. rodier said on 01-05-2009

    hey i’ve tried that!

  48. niel said on 01-05-2009

    ang hahaba ng comment, nakakatamad basahin. iisa lang naman ang ending. eh matalino naman ang letter sender, may masteral pa nga, so di na kailangan ang masyadong mahabang komento, konti lang ok na para di nakakatamad basahin. Peace… 🙂

  49. Kiro tashima said on 01-05-2009

    Marvin,

    Ako na lang. Promise I will love you too.

  50. jay said on 01-05-2009

    Hi,

    It’s not clear on your letter on how well you know Macky. You met him 2005, right? Does that mean that you already know him well his personality,character, attitude, to his family background? These are important factors before deciding on inviting macky to live with you or be with you abroad. Kasi mahirap nang itama once makita niyong hindi pala kayo magkasundo at nagsasama na kayo tapos sa abroad pa.

    Kindly assess your feelings for him first. It might be tinutulang mo lang siya dahil naaawa ka or may feelings ka talagang iba para sa kanya (meaning mahal mo na siya). On my assessment, I think Macky knows na iba na nararamdam mo para sa kanya. The time you kissed him and wala siya reaction, it’s an implication na somehow alam niya. It’s either he has the same feeling for you or he just don’t want to disappoint you. Na if magalit siya, bigla ka maturnoff sa kanya.

    Your concern about your age gap is not really a problem. It really does exist. 6 years is not a gap at all. Mine in fact is 12 years. And I’m not having a problem with it. We’re helping each other understand our differenecs, ideas or thoughts. Masarap may kasamang hindi mo kaedad dahil laging may matutunan ka nito. But again, yours is a different story. It is not a gap for me.

    You are also concerned on revealing your personality, right? YOu have to think it over. It’s not easy to come out from the shell. Nasa confusion stage ka pa. There’s no turning back once you had come out from the shell and expose your true you. Though, masaya talaga ang feeling pagnaeexpress mo sarili mo.

    Lastly, I will not be saying you don’t have to trust him the hundred percent. Kilalanin mo muna siya ng mabuti. As from my readings, marami ka ng naibigay sa kanya. You had helped him a lot including his family. Pwedeng mangyaring he is taking advantage of you. Nakikita niyang naging masarap ang buhay na kasama ka. Hindi mo inalintananng tumulong at magbigay marahil dahil importante na siya para sayo. Pero sana huwag mong ibigay lahat. Because at the end kung magkakaproblema, ikaw na lang mag-isa matitira. Again think more than a hundred percent of your decisions before doing it.

    I’m not good at giving advices but I do hope may natutunan ka. I salute you for your kindness and generosity. Take care. God Bless.

  51. Courage Philippines said on 01-05-2009

    If you want Macky all for yourself, then you should ask yourself if you truly love him in every sense of that word.

    If you aspire to see Macky grow and be all that he can be without expecting anything in return, then that’s something else.

    Feelings are feelings and as such don’t really give a true measure whether what you do is right or wrong. Don’t mistake feelings for genuine affection. Guidance and counsel from the Above should direct your feelings in order to do what needs to be done.

    Love without expecting to be loved in return.

  52. Jack said on 01-05-2009

    I’m a constant lurker here at MGG and I very seldom comment, but I believe I just have to this time because I can very much relate to your situation.

    I’m currently 20 years old and I had my first boyfriend when I was 18. We’ve broken up a couple of months ago because of personal issues, among other things. But our story is very similar to yours. He’s 5 years my senior and I treat him very much as an older brother. He always gives me advice when I need it and is always there to offer a helping hand, much like what a true-blue kuya would do. In return I’d be his jovial little brother, ever present when he needs somebody to listen, ever the companion he needs in his times of solitude.

    He was about to enter the seminary when we started our relationship. The long and the short of it is that he decided not to go through with it because of me. He loved me then, and he loved me ever since he met me. And I’ve grown to love him too. I was crying everyday simply waiting for that date when he would finally enter the seminary. I’m just all too glad to know that he won’t be pursuing that vocation–of course I may look like a bad person for hindering him but it was a choice we both took.

    And so we embarked on our 2-year journey to a relationship together. There were a lot of tough times but let’s just say we got by because we treat each other primarily as, parang ganyan nga, kuya-bunso. Medyo lumaki ang complications sa relationship so I decided to broke up with him. And ngayon somehow I regret even going through that relationship, not because it was hard, but because by losing it I lost my kuya as well.

    So in your predicament, I think it’s very possible na it’s a kuya-bunso relationship. Meron kasing tinatawag na filial love, or brotherly love. Love mo lang sa kapwa mo, not necessarily romantic. And it’s up to you if you’re gonna risk that relationship you have, which I think is very precious and should be treasured.

    Of course, this is just your side of the story. You can’t pursue a relationship nang gusto mo lang. Kelangan mo rin tanungin siya, kung ano ba ang gusto nya sa buhay, for all we know hindi naman yun ang gusto niya. Mahirap ipaliwanag sa parents, because they will never ever understand, pero maybe if he can stand on his own na he can also make decisions on his own.

    Haha sorry ang haba. Tagos kasi sa puso. I still have a lot to say pero I think this is quite a lot already. 🙂 Good luck and I hope and pray that you make the right decision.

  53. blood berry said on 01-05-2009

    KUYA MARVIN,

    SOMEHOW, I CAN RELATE TO YOUR PREDICAMENT BECAUSE I WAS ABLE TO ESTABLISH SUCH RELATIONSHIP WITH A YOUNGER GUY WHEN I WAS STILL IN COLLEGE. UP TO NOW, HE CALLS ME KUYA., AND I CALL HIM BUNSO… I MUST SAY THAT IN MY CASE, I REALLY LOVED MY BUNSO BOTH BROTHERLY AND ROMANTICALLY. NOTHING HAPPENED BETWEEN US THOUGH. AS IN WE’RE JUST LIKE BROTHERS TALAGA. ANG PINAGKAIBA LANG SA SITWASYON NATIN, RIGHT FROM THE START, I WAS ABLE TO CONDITION MYSELF NA “WALANG KAPUPUNTAHAN” KAPAG MAGIGING “ON” KAMI. KASI STRAIGHT SIYA. EH YUNG BUNSO MOH STRAIGHT DIN BA? KUNG OO, NAPAKAKONTI NG CHANCES NA MAY PATUTUNGUHAN NA MAGING MASAYA KAYO AS A COUPLE CAUSE MEN HAVE THEIR OWN NEEDS NA BABABE LANG ANG NAGSASATISFY. NGAYON, TUNGKOL SA MGA PINUPROBLEMA MOH, ETO ANG MASASABI KO.

    1. KUNG KUKUNIN MO XA AT MAGTATRABAHO SA IBANG BANSA KASAMA KA. —– SIYA LANG ANG MAKAKAPAGDESISYON NON KUNG GUSTO NIYANG SUMAMA. SUPPOSE NA SUMAMA NGA SIYA, AT SA IYO SIYA TUMIRA, KAYA MO BANG PANINDIGAN ANG PAGIGING “KUYA LANG” SA KANYA NA HINDI NAOOVERCOME NG PAGNANASA? PATIRAHIN MO NA LANG KAYA SIYA SA MGA HOMES NA SAGOT NG COMPANY? PARA MAGING INDEPENDENT NA DIN SIYA DI BA?

    2. KUNG SASABIHIN MO BA SA TATAY NIYA? —– IN MY VIEWPOINT DAHIL HINDI AKO MAHILIG MAGTAGO NG SIKRETO AT EMOTIONS, SASABIHIN KO SA TATAY NIYA ANG TOTOO. IYON AY DAHIL I KNOW FOR A FACT NA HANDA AKO SA ANU MANG KALALABASAN. KUNG GAGAWIN MO RIN YUN, HANDA KA RIN BA SA MAGIGING CONSEQUENCES? IF YOU HAVE DOUBTS, BETTER THINK TWICE.

    3. SA PLANNED VACATION NIYO PAG-UWI MO SA PINSA, I FIND IT REALLY SWEET THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO CELEBRATE HIS 21ST BDAY WITH HIM…. PERO ARE YOU DOING THAT AS A LOVER OR AS A BROTHER? IF YOU’RE DOING THAT AS A BROTHER, WELL AND GOOD. IF AS A LOVER NAMAN, YOU WILL BETRAY THE BOTH OF YOU. YOU WILL BETRAY HIM KASI ANG KUYA NIYA, MAY PAGNANASA PALA SA KANYA, (THOUGH GINAWA MO NA PLA YUN NOON 2005 PA). IBIBITRAY MO ANG SARILI MOH KASI YOU WILL BREAK THE IMAGE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO PORTRAY TOWARDS HIM AT SA MGA TAONG NAKAPALIGID SA INYO..

    4. SA HINABA HABA NG MGA SINABI KO NA PARANG WALANG KAPUPUNTAHAN, MAY BIGLA AKONG NAALALA. BEFORE YOU ARE ABLE TO SOLVE A PROBLEM, YOU MUST FIRST IDENTIFY WHAT THE PROBLEM IS. SA PALAGAY KO YOU SHOULD FIRST CHECK YOURSELF. “BUNSO NGA LANG BA TALAGA” ANG TURING MO SA KANYA, APPARENTLY, BASE SA STORY MOH, WHAT YOU FEEL TOWARDS HIM IS WAY MORE THAN JUST BROTHERLY LOVE. (IF NOT, DI SANA WALANG NAGYARI SA INYO DIBA?). NGAYON KUNG NAIDENTIFY MO NA SA SARILI MOG NA HINDI LANG KAPATID ANG TURING MO SA KANYA, NA MAHAL MO SIYA ROMANTICALLY, SEX INCLUDED, NEXT STEP IS TANUNGIN MO SIYA. SABIHIN MO SA KANYA ANG NARARAMDAMAN MO AND ASK HIM ABOUT THE REAL SCORE. ANU BA ANG TURING NIYA SA IYO? PAYAG BA SIYANG MAGING LOVER MO? KUNG HINDI SIYA PAYAG, AT KUYA LANG TALAGA ANG TURING NIYA SA IYO, KAYA MO BA ITONG TANGGAPIN NG WALANG PAGAALINLANGAN? KAYA MO BANG IPAGPATULOY ANG BROTHERLY REL. NIYO NANG HINDI NAGHAHANGAD NG HIGIT PA? KUNG HINDI MO KAYA YUN,ANU ANG GAGAWIN MOH? IIWANAN MO NA LANG BA SIYA? KANYA KANYA NA LANG BA? HAHANAP KA NALANG BA NG IBANG PUWEDENG MAGING BUNSO PLUS LOVER MO AT THE SAME TIME? EH PANU KUNG PAYAG SIYANG MAGING LOVER MOH? IPAPAALAM MO BA ITO SA PAMILYA NYO O ITATAGO NA LANG? NAKAKASIGURO KA BANG ANG ISA SA INYO AY HINDI MAKAKAHANAP NG IBA? POSITIVE KA BA NA NASISILAYAN MO ANG “HAPPY EVER AFTER”? MGA TANONG YAN NA IKAW ANG MAKAKASAGOT. AT MASASAGOT MO IYAN KUNG MALINAW SA SARILI MOH KUNG ANU BA TALAGA ANG GUSTO MO. “KUYA LANG BA? OR LOVER?” HUWAG KANG MAGMADALI SA PAGSAGOT AT BAKA MADAPA KA. DAHANDAHANIN MOH PARA MAKASIGURADO KA…

    P.S.
    -NGA PALA. KUNG PUMAYAG MAN SIYA NA MAGING KAYO AT NAGSAMA KAYO AT NGTRABAHO ABROAD… CONGRATULATIONS. PERO PAG NAGYARI NA YUN, ISA LANG ANG MAIPAPAYO KO SA IYO; “ENJOY IT WHILE IT LASTS”… AND WHEN IT’S OVER… “AT LEAST YOU HAVE THE MEMORIES TO ACCOMPANY YOU DURING YOUR LONESOME TIMES”. I HOPE MAKATULONG ANG MALA NOBELA KONG COMMENT SA IYO KUYA MARVIN. KUYA KASI 22 PALANG AKO…. HEHEHE. HAYUN, BACK TO WORK NA AKO. CIAO!! AND OH, IF YOU NEED TO TALK YOU CAN MAIL ME AT shenn_smith@yahoo.com. [ migs and others pasensiya na kung mahaba ah… pagbigyan nyo na.. minsan lang naman. mwah!]

  54. butterflyrhai said on 01-05-2009

    love is a 2 way relationship, it involes sacrifices and a lot of trust, it can be one way but that means its true and unconditional, then u can say its just brotherly love that ur feeling for him, but based on ur story i doubt, it is more that, decipher what ur inner feelings are, the consequences of it, and a lot more sacrifices than what u have done so far, plus the fact remains if he wuld love u for real, it may take some time to know all this but its better to wait rather be miserable and lonely…and whatever happens with whatever u decide on, if u may want to be his mentor, lover or brother or its not ur lost but wuld still be ur gain…goodluck

  55. nadroj08 said on 01-05-2009

    I don’t kn0w what is the real problem in here, ung feelings ba para kay macky? Or how to tell his dad? Or kung isa2ma m0 b sya sa dubai? About s feelings m0, dapat alamin m0 muna yung feelings m0 kung an0 b tlga un, kung brotherly lang b o s0mething deeper, the age gap is not that of a big issue also. The real pr0blem is that you said he is straight and thats a big one. Now about the father, an0 b ang gusto m0 sbihin? Meron b kayo relationshp ni macky? Na kailangan nya malaman, kung wla ano b gusto mo sabihin? Na gusto mo ung anak nya..kung wla nman kau relati0nship, an0 b ang dpat m0 sbihin? Ung third, kung papupuntahin m0 sya jan..it depends on him kung gusto b nya tlga and also on you na rin kung kya mo ba..un lang.
    As usual ngmagaling na naman ako. Hehehe

  56. herbs said on 01-05-2009

    its not funny..i find it..sweet (incest fetish kicking in) um..sorry ha. wala akong masasabi eh hahah. i havent had my sleep yet >< and its 7am na.hayyyyyyy

  57. roi said on 01-05-2009

    dearest migs,

    Paano ba mag mahal sa taong sinasaktan ang feeling mo?

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