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Makabuluhang Pasko, Mula Kay Migs
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Naging makulay at buhay na buhay ang taong 2009 para sa akin, at napakalaking parte noon ang pagkakaroon ng blog na ito. I realize how lucky I am for having such a big audience for my stories, my thoughts, my frivolities, my follies, my triumphs, my silence. Lucky not for anything else, but for being able to share my life with such a wide audience. It’s as if my life has richer meaning and is indeed bigger than just living for myself. Mas may katuturan, may kabuluhan.
My real, offline life is nothing muted nor drab, but I must admit that Migs, the online persona, has much more oomph, and surprisingly, lives a sparklier, glitzier existence. His life has been read, reenacted, and scrutinized in a million and one ways inside the mind of his readers. Migs has followers and fans, even online stalkers. But, let’s not forget, he has nasty detractors galore too, bombastic bullies (na umaabot pa sa kung saan-saang lupalop ng mundo), and near-psychotic anti-anything freaks. Kumbaga, life for Migs has been multiplied 100x because of this blog. What is most interesting for him though, are the in-betweens: those who do not idolize Migs but take a liking for him for his talents as much as for his humanness; those who are able to identify with his struggles, yet are able to think for themselves; those who are able to hold judgment even for just a bit, to give way to real life lessons that are generously shared to those who are open. These are the people who have a special place in his heart. He does not know all of them by name, but is quite sure they are out there.
Every year, when we celebrate this most joyous of feasts, we very naturally bring our family and friends to mind, and wish them the best. The parties and get togethers are the most palpable manifestations of this — we, physically, come together, raise glasses, embrace in warm hugs, and wish only the best for those we hold dear in our hearts. Like you, I too have been doing these during the past couple of weeks since I arrived from the US. I realize that as I have been wishing the best for my family and friends, I have been missing one person in the equation: myself. I think I deserve to wish the best for myself as well.
It’s been years that I have been telling myself, brainwashing myself, how blessed I am, and that I need nothing more (my close friends scratch their heads thinking of what gifts to give me). This time, I think I know what I need. I need to admit that however richly blessed I am, I need the humility to accept that truly, these people around me, including my dear blog friends and readers, have something of value to give me as gift.
When you spend time with me, talking in private, while the party is in full-blast, that is your gift to me.
When you notice what I need, in the simplest of ways, like when you pour water in my half-filled glass, without fanfare, just a small thoughtful act, that is a gift you give me.
When, after an evening of fun get together, you text me, “I enjoyed that evening with you and our friends,” that is a gift you give me.
When you ask, “How are you?” and I can see in your eyes that you really are interested in listening how I am, that is your gift to me.
When you come without asking, you invite me without having to tag along everyone else, because you just want to spend time with me, only me, that is your gift to me.
When you hug me, genuinely, because you feel our connection, without even thinking why or what for, without regard whether you’re a touchy person or not, whether it’s appropriate for you whatever your sexual preference is, or however I may interpret that gesture, that is a gift you give me.
When you sit down with me, and converse, when you talk in wild abandon, or when you just listen intently as I blabber, and in that conversation I feel you are with me as equals regardless of age, race, gender, social status, or whatever gaps there may be, that is your gift to me.
When you listen to me, and as I tell you stories of my life that make you cringe, as you little by little try to make space for me in your heart, to hold me there with as little bias or judgement as you can, embracing me in your understanding, that is a gift you give to me.
When you share a piece of yourself to me, raw and honest, through a story, a life lesson, in between side-splitting laughters, or with a lump of emotions gathering in our throats, or tears flowing down our cheeks, that is a gift you give to me.
Thank you everyone for your gifts. This year you gave me so many. You may not have noticed, I may not have noticed too back then, but now I do.
Maraming salamat, at isang makabuluhang Pasko sa inyo.
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Merry Christmas Migs!
Wow, na-hug kita dati in one party. Sabi ko pa nga, “Migs, pa-hug.” Tas sabi mo, “O sige, ilang ang gusto mo?” Hehe.
allen at Dec 24, 09 at 2:44 pm
Migs, thanks so much for coming up with this avenue where people like us can express their sentiments without any reservations (except those who always take offense on some other things, but that is just natural). As an OFW away from home, this site – although had just began to comb through the tidbits of gaylife experiences of others especially in the Philippines – just a few days ago, makes already my Christmas a significant one! A very Merry Christmas and a Prosperous, Joyous New Year… to you and your love ones as well as to all your friends and intercessors/intervenors in this site!.
Luvkou at Dec 24, 09 at 4:27 pm
have a fab christmas to you migs and to all the followers of your blog..roll on 2010..
pacer150 at Dec 24, 09 at 5:07 pm
Big thanks and big hug for you, Migs. You are really an inspiration to us all. Merry Christmas and more happiness this year 2010!
boleyn guy at Dec 24, 09 at 5:41 pm
Migs!!! Emo mode! Hehe… well like what I always say to you, thank you so much for the company. Your company has truly been a blessing. I mean it from the bottom…..of my heart.
guyrony at Dec 24, 09 at 6:34 pm
Merry Christmas Migs! =)
Ronnie at Dec 24, 09 at 8:16 pm
migs you are truly a great person. your blog inspire me to improve my life merry xmas 09. hope you will be more successful this coming 2010. more and more, you made my year also again THANK YOU. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK BB
cocoy at Dec 24, 09 at 11:53 pm
Happy Christmas Migs!
londoner at Dec 25, 09 at 12:06 am
migs, ur 1 of the few gay people that i really admired… when im reading your blogs i feel im feeling the moment ; your sentiments, your shortcomings and also your happiness. We havent met but i know your a true genuine person that this world needs. You wear your heart in your sleeves, and we, the readers, feels that… to all of you(fabcasters), who have made this blog possible more power ( and tony lobster, ur my fave). to you migs, may you still touched lives thru the excellence of your craft next year and more years to come. Heart you…HAPPY YULETIDE SEASONS!
vegasbaby at Dec 25, 09 at 4:37 am
migs,
i remember you telling me once sa starbucks malapit sa CCP if i could take over your blog. sabi ko, no way! kaiba ka kasi. your blog has become a community because of its personality, and that’s because of you.
merry christmas, my friend. i hope to see you and the gang again soon.
Ian at Dec 25, 09 at 11:35 am
Merry Christmas po!
Rod at Dec 25, 09 at 5:14 pm
Merry Christmas Migs! I hope to meet you someday.
ChinkyBoi at Dec 25, 09 at 9:47 pm
Happy holidays Migs,
You’re truly such an inspiration!
Keep it up.
God bless us always.
Edgar at Dec 26, 09 at 12:40 am
thanks migs! merry christmas and a happy new year! hugs!
abc at Dec 26, 09 at 1:50 am
Migs, thanks for everything.. actually i’m one of the members from MGG FOR FRIENDS na social networking site na itinatag mo, and i am really thankful because you have given people like us a bridge that enabled us to express our thoughts, and linked us together in a bond of friendship… and you know what, grateful din ako kasi, kahit di tayo close, di tayo nagusap ni minsan, at least, you are one of those people that contributes to the welfare of PLUs coz somehow, with your site, there’s a common place for us PLU’s to get along with and share ideas…
MERRY CHRISTMAS MIGS…
HAPPY NEW YEAR AH… hehe…
penge hamon
haha
shino at Dec 26, 09 at 3:04 am
Maraming salamat sa inyong lahat na nag-iwan ng comment. May utang ako sa inyo ng isang napakahigpit na yakap. Pakisingil kapag nagkita tayo.
At sa mga tumitingala sa akin, pakibaba po ang tingin, andito lang po ako sa tabi ninyo. Hindi sa pagpapaka-humble, ang concern ko lang eh baka magka-stiff neck kayo. Hehe.
Mabuhay tayong lahat! Salubungin ang 2010 nang may ngiti sa labi, at sabay-sabay nating sambitin: “World Peace!”
migs at Dec 26, 09 at 3:39 am
its a fab. 2009.. M0re awesome,interesting stories we want to hear from u migs.. Have a wonderful new year _s_ to come,
Huhu at Dec 26, 09 at 8:20 am
wala ka ng utang sa akin migs, na HUG na kita kagabi, nice to see you on christmas night! mwahugs!
ianfelix at Dec 26, 09 at 2:41 pm
merry xmass to you and to all readers!
maccallister at Dec 27, 09 at 7:56 am
Merry Christmas Migs… ayan ang bait ko ha… choz!
Candy at Dec 27, 09 at 9:39 pm
merry christmas and thanks and sana ma mit na kita
bilogboy at Jan 4, 10 at 8:30 pm
ako den… sana one day mameet ko c migs..
Mr.Undiscover at Mar 14, 10 at 4:07 pm