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Ey Migs gandang gabi, call me Brent. So nakita ko tong site di mo naman ako follower ng site but I just want to share i guess. I am 21 years old fresh grad, pansinin naman ng kababaihan, may sense of humor yun nga lang suplado. So eto na nga, attracted ako sa babae un nga lang may pagkamapili. Hindi mo sa akin maasahan ang mga normal na reaction ng mga lalake kapag makakita lang babae. Yun eh ewan ba kala ko straight ako pero ngayon dudang duda na ako.

Dahil to dun sa isa kong ka officemate tangkad, mukang barumbado pero mabait naman at magalang. Ngayon kasi nag-iimagine ako ng mga fantasies kasama sya. Hindi tungkol sa sex ah, parang gusto ko lang sya makasama, yakap ganun. Naasar nga ako sa ugali ko e, hindi ko sya unang binabati kahit lagi nya iniimik. Pinipigilan ko kasi ang sarili ko, may girlfriend ung tao, isa parang imposible ang ganung setup, ayaw ko lang mabuhay sa isang pakiramdam na alam kong walang patutunguhan.

Natatawa na lang ako pag tinutukso nya ako dun sa isa ko ding kaopisina na babae loob ko ang dali mag pacute sa babe pero ang hirap mag papogi sa pogi hehhehe. Minsan nakasabay ko sya sa isang short trip sa jeep, aun poker face pero kinilig ako.

Salamat sa pakikinig.

– Brent

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Dear Brent, ipagpatuloy mo lang yan. Feeling ko tama ang kutob at duda mo. Marami kaming naghihintay sa iyo, ika nga, welcome to the club 😉 Migs

Comments (31)

  1. Kanuto said on 10-10-2012

    push it hard,,,, 🙂

  2. Kagandahan said on 27-09-2012

    alam mo brent… it’s more fun to be gay…
    sabi nga ni Jose, let’s join us! hahaha

  3. mike said on 26-09-2012

    I was once very close to an officemate. He was my best buddy for two years. We became close because we both love drinking. Regular yung pag inom namin at palagi pa ako sa bahay nila, sleepover dahil sa sobrang lasing.

    Because of this closeness, i fell in love with him. He became my world and my life. Sarap ng feeling. Masaklap lang, syempre di ko masabi sa kanya.

    One night, after ng drinking session namin., i went home. Hindi ko na napigilan sarili ko. Tinext ko sya at inamin sa kanya na mahal ko siya.

    It was a bad decision. Iniwasan na nya ako. Kahit sa ofc, di na nya ako pinapansin. Kahit yung mga ofcmates ko, nanibago sa amin dahil all of a sudden, yung hindi mapaghiwalay ay nag iiwasan na.

    Every night, i would cry myself to sleep. Ang sakit2x. Namayat ako ng husto, akala ng mga tao kaya ako pumayat ay dahil sa gym.

    After a few months, nung nakalimutan na niya siguro yung mga sinabi ko, bhumalik na naman closeness namin. I was so happy na naman. Kaso lang, as time goes by unti unti na uli syang lumayo.

    I was so depressed. I even joined a catholic community for support,.

    Fastforward. Time healed alll wounds. Naka recover nako ngayon.

    We’re still officemates. Pag nagkakasalubong kami, tumatango lang kami justt to acknowledge one’s presence. But the friendshi p never came back.

    Pag nagkaroon ako time, i will write this whole story kay migs. Dami kc nakakakilig na moments, at kapupulutan ng aral.

  4. WEL LARA said on 26-09-2012

    I think we all started naman to something like this.

    KILIG moments and then keeping one’s feelings to himself. buti may MGG kasi you could share freely.

    @Brent, move on but don’t supress your self. mawawala rin yan. trust me been there many times.

    kaso sa tindi ng fantasies mo sa kania I think you’re more attracted to men.

    go ahead and date, explore and be happy.

    make account sa PR,
    join textings clans (maybe)
    add your self to FB froups with Gay (all sorts) members and see the diffirence.

    again we say WORLD PEACE with MIgs 😉

    • Closer2Fame said on 26-09-2012

      I suggest adding people w/ a lot of mutual friends… be friends w/ them by getting to know them online 1st and w8 until that person gives his/her number… W8 for them to invite you to hang w/ them like the gym.. Simply greet them there in person and who knows what’l happen.. I suggest people around your age who’s just like you.. Just take things slow. 🙂

  5. Brent said on 25-09-2012

    Sa comment, thx.

  6. Mark said on 25-09-2012

    I can really relate to your story Brent. In my case, I had a crush with a classmate in college.Minsan, dahil sa kagustuhan kong labanan ung nararamdaman ko, sinasadya ko siyang galitin, ung tipong ittago mo ung sapatos niya, kasi hilig niyang hubarin un habang nasa klase. It’s immature but it worked…for a while. may black eye ka na nga, pero ung nararamdan mo tinotorture ka pa rin…for now, I think you’re on the right track. Sharing your feelings, is a great way to understand yourself…next step is to find a support system, for me I have my lesbian friend, para d masyado halata, no offense meant…takot pa rin kasi ako eh, kaya saludo ako sa mga ladlad all the way…by the way, I’m only 22, hope I was able to help…

    • Paul said on 26-09-2012

      I remembered tuloy yung guy classmate ko na crush ko nung college.
      Tinago ko yungtsinelas nya sa mismong bag nya.
      Nag-away kami dahil dun, ako naman eh feelingera, iniimagine ko, LQ kami.
      Then dahil seatmates naman kami on most subjects, can’t afford na di magpansinan, so I said sorry sa kanya. Talagang whispering voice ko nun, feeling magjowa kami, and ganun din naman pagsagot nya sa’ken, whispering keme keme din. Haha, kilig ako nun sobra.

      Then after naming magbati ulit, mas naging close pa kami at lalo ko pa sha naging crush!
      Pero nakagraduate na kami and di naman nya alam na gay ako and I have feelings for him.

      btw, I’m only 20, just sayin’

  7. NorthfaceNY said on 25-09-2012

    Kinilig naman ako sa pagbabasa nito! Haha! Way to go, man!

  8. Rants Under The Sun said on 25-09-2012

    Hmm… mukhang barumbado…yan ang bet ko…anyways…

    With regards to what you feel for your office mate, you should know your boundaries. You should realize first who you really are before jumping into a relationship; whether with a guy or a girl. Because we should accept the fact that some people still prefer the opposite sex. Some people would want to have a commitment with the same sex. While others are just jerks and they would hook up with either men or women for just sex (aka “Douche bags). Also, keep your guards strong against douche bags if you ever encounter them because if you suddenly developed feelings for these kind of people, it sucks pal. Furthermore, these people are the ones with STDs. Be careful.

    If you are willing to go beyond the fence and tell him you like him, be prepared for the consequences. So I’m telling you not to rush on these things. How long have you known this person? Do you feel just aroused or aroused plus emotional attachment?

    Loving someone, whether homo or hetero comes with retroactions. All you need to do is measure the scales until it tilts in favor of happiness, satisfaction, and commitment.

    Maybe you can read this article, this is fascinating http://www.breaktheillusion.com/gay/in-love-with-a-straight-man-what-to-do/

    xoxo…

  9. Closer2Fame said on 25-09-2012

    @Brent

    Do you only have fantasies w/ guys? How about girls or both?

    Do you have any siblings?… Can you tell me the gender sequence from oldest to youngest?…

    Could you give a clue on where you studied Elem/High School or College?

    Could you describe how you look like? (Ex, Height, weight, complexion, etc. )

    Could you describe the personality of your Mother and Father and were they both present through out your life/ childhood?

    Were you molested as a child? What and w/ whom was your 1st sexual experience?

    Anyway, these are a few of the many factors of your sexuality. There’s a lot to consider so don;t be too hasty. Good luck and safe sex! 🙂

  10. Closer2Fame said on 25-09-2012

    @Brent

    Do you only have fantasies w/ guys? How about girls or both?

    Do you have any siblings?… Can you tell me the gender sequence from oldest to youngest?…

    Could you give a clue on where you studied Elem/High School or College?

    Could you describe how you look like? (Ex, Height , weight, complexion, etc. )

    Could you describe the personality of your Mother and Father and were they both present through out your life/ childhood?

    Wereyou molested as child? What and w/ whom was your 1st sexual experience?

    Anyway, these are a few of the many factors of your sexuality. There’s a lot to consider so don;t be too hasty. Good luck and safe sex! 🙂

  11. flick said on 25-09-2012

    you’re just 21. there’s more men to come. just don’t let your guards down. hiv is everywhere. nevertheless, enjoy the experience as you discover this part of you. good luck! (coming from a 23 yr old man lols)

    • Closer2Fame said on 25-09-2012

      @Flick

      Surprised, your only 23… You sound so mature…

      • flick said on 26-09-2012

        haha. you’re quite right. maybe I’m just being sentimental at times. my ex bf told me back then, “victory is always mine whenever we have debates on social issues; but as far as our relationship is concerned, you always leave me speechless”. 😆

  12. from_cebu said on 24-09-2012

    naman oh..grabe sobrang related sa sitwasyun ko ngayun !!

  13. Zomzom said on 24-09-2012

    Just keep smiling 🙂 what you put out there you will attract. As for Mr. Pogi, kiligin ka na kung kiligin, but just set no expectations. He may or may not make your fantasies become real, but just sit back. Chill lang, stay friendly. 🙂

  14. Red_ said on 24-09-2012

    I like Migs’ reply “Marami kaming naghihintay sa iyo, ika nga, welcome to the club “. I think I’d like to meet you Brent. 😛

  15. Ulon said on 24-09-2012

    hinay hinay lang muna… wag ka magmamadali. mas maganda kasing hanggang sa imahinasyon lang natin ang mga gusto nating gawin, lalo’nat, di ka pa naman segurado sa kasarian mo, at sa tingin ko ay friendly lang talaga ung tao. iwas malasing pag kasama sya sa grupo… :))

  16. Paul said on 24-09-2012

    I experience his in college, back when I was still in denial of my sexuality thinking that I can still change.

    Kilig na kilig ako sa kaklase kong born-again guy kapag tumatabi sha sa’kin during our classes. Tapos he makes jokes pa about me tapos tawanan lang kami ng tawanan. Kapag sumasakay ng jeep, magkatabi kami. Kapag may sleepover, tumatabi ako sa kaniya. Bromance kung bromance. Kakamiss sha talaga.

    Wala na kaming communication ngayon pero I still miss him kahit na nga ba may iba na akong nakakafling at nagkaroon na rin ng boyfriend.

    Alam mo yung thought na iniisip ko na baka beki din sha at may gusto sa akin, tinatago nya lang. Oh well, too late for that.

    • Paul said on 25-09-2012

      Or is it too late nga ba?

      Kakagraduate lang naman namin nung March. I’m 20, he’s 21.

      Pero hindi ko na ipupursue kung ano man yung naramdaman ko noon (and I think hanggang ngayon).
      Maghahanap na lang ako ng iba na sigurado akong kagaya ko. Lalo pa at ang hook-ups ko at serious relationship with a guy eh hindi naman naging successful.

      Meron ba jan? 😀

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