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Heard from reliable sources that my long-time fave therapist is back at Hoja de Laurel (Quezon Avenue, Quezon City). One of the more good looking ones too. Name is Kenneth. I remember his massage as consistently slow and thorough, not leaving any relevant muscle fiber unattended.

Text Hoja to reserve a slot for their sigma (signature massage). Hoja is reachable via +63 917 911 7821.

Much has changed and we now see better acceptance of gay, bisexual, and questioning men in Philippine urban society. Despite this, many of us still feel the need to hide parts of who we truly are. With a great (but many times unconscious) desire to conform to what we think others expect of us, we follow paths that inadvertently disconnect us from the authentic yearnings of our core. This oftentimes translates to inexplicable feelings of emptiness or being stuck, perennial thoughts of being in the wrong job or wrong career path, or recurring experiences of failed relationships.

The Men’s Retreat, through a set of non-religious activities and lecturettes done within a weekend, will use the power of self-awareness and community to enable you to appreciate where you are in your current life, identify limiting beliefs and behaviors, and chart a new and more core-connected way forward.

Enjoy quality time with the most important person in your life–YOU. The weekend getaway is a hilltop retreat house just half-an-hour away from Ortigas, in a safe and affirming space designed for insightful introspection. Join the Men’s Retreat and start your journey to authentic and wholehearted living.

May 20-21, 2017. Register via go.loveyourself.ph/mensretreat


(Mandaluyong City). LoveYourself, Inc. in partnership with the Philippine Educational Theater Association (PETA) invites everyone to the 3:00 p.m. show of Care Divas on 5 February 2017 at the PETA Theater Centre in New Manila, Quezon City.
“This partnership with PETA is also a great way of tapping the arts as a means to educate the public not just with the plight of OFWs but with the struggles of the LGBT community including the stigma on HIV and social limitations,” LoveYourself Executive Director Ronivinn G. Pagtakhan said.

Care Divas will be re-staged as PETA’s flagship production for its 50th anniversary. It is a musical drama that tells the story of five transgender Overseas Filipino Workers in Israel who work as care givers and take the stage as drag queen performers at night. The production focuses on the struggle of these transgender women as they seek acceptance in a foreign land while making ends meet not just for themselves but for their families in the Philippines.
While the hit-musical will run from 3 February to 19 March, only the 3:00 p.m. show on 5 February is dedicated to LoveYourself.

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Allow me to publish this note I received from a mother named Jennifer, who’s just beaming with pride because of her son. Jennifer – I am so proud of you! Dear readers, send Jennifer a dose of your rainbow thoughts and wishes!

Dear Migs,

Last week, my 7-year-old was on the football field happily holding hand with another little boy. After the game, as we were returning home, I asked him if he is gay. He said yes. I asked him if the neighbor girl was still his girlfriend. He said, “we’re just friends”. I explained that some people like boys and girls, and asked if he did. He replied, “I kind of like girls, but I’m gay”. I consider this a parenting win. I’m so proud that my child feels safe saying, “I’m gay”, without fear of judgement from his parents.

Jennifer

Yesterday, July 12, 2015, I went for my HIV test at my usual place (Love Yourself Anglo).  It’s my routine to do it every 6 months. Even if I have gone through the test many times before, I never got rid of the anxiety, especially during that part when the counselor discusses with me the results. Medyo praning lang siguro. 

How about you? Have you gone for your HIV test? Kinakabahan ka rin ba when you go through your test?

Dear Migs,

I just discovered your blog yesterday ang yet I’m already composing an email for you. Hope you and our friends there can help me.

I’m not into writing letters or expressing myself to anyone ever since. Kaya siguro ang laki ng pasasalamat ko sayo dahil sa 30years ng buhay ko ngaun ko lang maeexpress ung sarili ng totoo as in ako.

Ok, a little bout me. I’m almost at my 30s with a girlfriend and working in an IT/Bpo company and I’m from pateros. Alam ko na attracted ako sa older men/daddy looking men and still do not have plan to go out ever! Di ko gustong maging bakla/bi, gusto ko kasing magkaroon ng sarili kong pamilya. To cut my story short, can you help me reach out to our gay daddies to share their stories with me? Gusto ko malaman mga bagay bagay pag nandun na, kasi nagbabalak na kami magpakasal in 1 or 2 years from now. Thank you in advance.

J.J.

Hi to all.
Matagal ko nang gusto ishare tong nararamdaman ko. Sa mga tao kase na
katulad natin, sobrang hirap humarap sa mga tao na straight ka. May
mga bagay kang nagagawa or nasasabi na out of your nature.
Im 26 years old. Nagtatrabaho sa isang semiconductor company ditto sa
Cavite. May dadalawang taon na ako dito. Bilang isang computer
engineering graduate, at sa isang semicon ka pa nagttrabaho, expected
na puro kalalakihan ang makakasama mo sa trabaho. Masaya kase puro
boys. Pero looking on the other side, sobrang hirap.
Marami na rin akong nagustuhan sa mga nakikilala ko dito. Pero share
ko na lang itong latest kong interest.
I have a co-worker here na of my same age. Pero he looks younger than
me. Tahimik, may hitsura, at medyo mahinhin ang kilos. Not mahinhin in
an effeminate way pero yung hindi brusko. Ganun sya kumilos kaya
lagging inaasar or niloloko xang ‘lambo’ or bakla. Once kaming
nagkasama sa isang project. Matagal ko na rin syang kilala pero sa
isang project ko lang sya napansin. We worked on a software
development sa isang machine sa company. It lasted for a month. Sa
isang buwan na yun, dun kami naging close.
Clicngy sya. Laging nakaakbay sa akin. Sumasandal sa skin. Pinapatong
nya ulo nya sa arms or sa balikat ko once he take some nap. Nung
nalaman nyang may kiliti ako, lagi na nya ako kinikiliti. Tapos kung
tignan nya ako, parang may ibig sabihin. Hindi ko alam kung tama ba
itong nararamdaman ko pero nahuhulog na ako sa kanya.
Out of my desperation, I texted him using a different number to show
how much I like him. Sinabi ko sa text na how beautiful he is as a
man, how he kills me with his smile, how he made my day when I see
him. And I told him sa text na gusto ko sya. Sinabi ko rin na lalake
ako at wala akong lakas ng loob magpakilala kase baka magbago yung
pagtingin nya skin bilang katrabaho.
Gusto ko maging close kami. Yung tipong comfortable sya na sabihan ako
ng mga bagay bagay. He’s not very open pa naman about his personal
life. Siguro hindi lang sya sanay na inoopen sa iba yung buhay nya.
Gusto ko iparamdam sa kanya na mahalaga sya sa akin. Gusto ko
iparamdam sa kanya na nagmamalasakit ako sa kanya.
Nung may sakit ssya pero pumasok pa rin sya, kitang kita ko na
nahihirapan sya sa sitwasyon nya. Namumutla na sya at nilalamig pero
trabaho pa rin. Sobra kong naawa. Gusto ko syang awatin sa pagttrabaho
para makapagpahinga. Inakbayan ko sya inhope na mawala ng konti yung
panlalamig nya. Gusto ko na syang yakapin nun ng mahigpit. Pero
pinangunahan pa ako ng takot at kaba. Mahal ko na siguro yung taong
yun para maalala ako ng ganito.
Hay. Ang hirap. Naluluha na lang ako pag tinitignan ko sya sa malayo.
gusto ko sabihin sa kanya kung sino at ano ba talaga ako. Kaso
natatakot ako na baka magbago tingin nya sa akin. At alam kong ganun
ang mangyayari. Ilang beses ko na tong naramdaman sa isang lalake.
Nagtapat ako, at ganun nga ang nangyari. Sobrang hirap. Pano ko ba
makukuha ang loob nya? Kahit maging super close friends lang kami ok
na sakin. Basta lagi ko syang nakakausap at nakakasama.

– Kimi

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Dear Kimi,

Madalas dinadapuan tayo ng kung tawagin natin ay pag-ibig sa panahong wala tayong kamalay-malay. Sa panahong ni hindi pa man din lang natin naiintindihan ang kakaibang pakiramdam ukol sa ating pagkatao, ay bigla tayong dinadaluhong ng pakiramdam na siyang lalong nakapagpapalito sa atin. Tanong mo, “paano ko ba makukuha ang loob niya?”

Pansinin mo na ang iyong katanungan ay upang pumitas, kumaripas na umangkin. Bakit kaya?

Bilang advice, siguro hahayaan kitang gawin kung ano man ang iyong nasa sa loob. Sasabihin ko lamang siguro na bukod sa paglasap sa napakasarap na pakiramdam ng pagiging in-love, sana ay huwag mong kalimutan ang iyong sarili. Ang alagaan mo ang iyong puso, at bigyang pansin din kung ano ang makabubuti sa iyo. Tandaan: Hindi lahat ng maganda, masarap, o kaanya-anyaya ay kinakailangang angkinin. Minsan mas masarap nga na sila’y nandiyan lang, kasama natin, kahit alam mong puwede rin silang wala.

Migs

From the ADMU Secret Files.

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May itsura ako at matipuno. But people are wondering why I still don’t have a GF. I’m actually still in the closet, but wala akong nagugustuhan sa student body ng ADMU. Fuck, kahit iwagayway pa ni *insert pogi guy here* yung tweetybird niya sa mukha ko, di ako matuturn on. 

Ang gusto ko kasi, DADDY.

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Mabilis ang biyahe namin mula Manila hanggang Quezon. Bago pumasyal, ibinaba muna namin ang mga dala niyang gamit sa bahay nila. Malalaki ang dala niyang bag. Punumpuno ng gamit. Tila ba hindi na babalik ng Maynila si Ding. Na-sad naman ako.

Sa unang pagtuntong pa lamang ng bahay nila Ding nagulat na ako. Napakalaki ng bahay nila. Tarangkahan pa lang, aba, malapad, matangkad, at di biro, bahay pang-mayaman. Pagbukas nito, tumambad sa akin ang isang napakalaking, konkretong bahay.

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Hindi ko siya binalikan. Ayoko nang um-effort. Sabi ko nga, jusko, tanghaling tapat, antaas ng araw. Di ako naglalandi hangga’t hindi kumakagat ang dilim ng gabi. Nag-text back naman ako kay Ding.

“Nakaalis na ako ng Greenbelt, pauwi na. Next time na lang Ding.”

Pero di ko talaga alam kung may next time.

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Wala na akong natanggap na reply galing kay Ding mula noong araw na iyon. Hindi na rin ako nag-text. Akala ko, tapos na ang kabanatang Ding sa libro ko. Isang gabi noong sumunod na Pebrero, natuklasang kong isa itong maling akala.

Galing sa opisina, nagyaya ako ng piling mga kaibigan upang sabay-sabay na mag-dinner. Karamihan kasi sa kanila ay galing sa kani-kanilang opisina sa Makati. Yung iba naman galing sa Capoeira practice sa Forbes Park. Kaya napagkayariang sa Greenbelt magkita-kita. Muli, doon sa restaurant nila Ding.

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