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Hi Migs,

I was deeply attracted and had feelings for a close friend of mine who is straight but is bisexual at times. I am bisexual. me and him have been intimate with each other numerous of times but I started falling for him hard so I stopped hanging with him and talking to him for awhile and wasn’t having sex with him. well I decided to move back in at his house a couple months ago and we started back messin around here and there and now I’ve kinda caught feelings for him again. I try to shake those feelings as much as I can and try to push them to the side but it makes me want him even more. he is cool messin around from time to time but said he would never date a guy and I would love to be in a relationship with him. I don’t know what to do. I need some serious advice.

– M.N.

 

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Allow me to publish this note I received from a mother named Jennifer, who’s just beaming with pride because of her son. Jennifer – I am so proud of you! Dear readers, send Jennifer a dose of your rainbow thoughts and wishes!

Dear Migs,

Last week, my 7-year-old was on the football field happily holding hand with another little boy. After the game, as we were returning home, I asked him if he is gay. He said yes. I asked him if the neighbor girl was still his girlfriend. He said, “we’re just friends”. I explained that some people like boys and girls, and asked if he did. He replied, “I kind of like girls, but I’m gay”. I consider this a parenting win. I’m so proud that my child feels safe saying, “I’m gay”, without fear of judgement from his parents.

Jennifer

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Hi Kuya Migs!

I identify myself as a young closeted *confused* lad, jacking off to numerous gay porn, fantasizing big (chubby/muscular) bodies etc, reading some gay fanfiction. movies about gay life etc. but I just really cannot connect or being friends with guys.

Everytime I am seeing a guy,regardless of where I am right now (In freshman year in college somewhere in Taft) my first impression ko sa kanila was the arrogant & cocky type, yung tipong mahilig mang-trip/mang-asar ng ibang tao. Also pala, yung mga typical interests ng mga boys, like online gaming, dota, some anime, basketball, sports, cars etc. never nakong nagkaroon ng interest.

And everytime some guy/manong calls me “pare”, “boss”, “brad” etc. I cringe… I really don’t know why. Maybe that I’ve developed some form of misandry or an identity crisis that I had experienced since my elementary days, where almost no boy wants to befriend me. I only had girls as my friends since then. Nagtuloy-tuloy ito during my highschool days, where most of guys in my age visit computer shops & playing basketball but I never had any interests in those things, as in wala talaga, hindi ako mag-clclick sa kanila (baka pati na rin sa inyo).

And the result is, wala akong naging kaibigan na mga lalaki ever since. Dahil nga, how can I be friends with them if I really do not have a common interest with them, e ano paguusapan natin?

And sadly, i’m really attracted physically & sexually to guys, gusto ko na nga maging babae eh.. 😛

I need some answers about my real identity is… wag kayong magagalit o maoffend sa mga words na nabasa nyo. 🙂

– Renzo

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Ang nakakalokang online novel na pinagbibidahan ni Ash at Trey 🙂 Basahin at kiligin hahaha!

Basahin dito.

Yesterday, July 12, 2015, I went for my HIV test at my usual place (Love Yourself Anglo).  It’s my routine to do it every 6 months. Even if I have gone through the test many times before, I never got rid of the anxiety, especially during that part when the counselor discusses with me the results. Medyo praning lang siguro. 

How about you? Have you gone for your HIV test? Kinakabahan ka rin ba when you go through your test?

Hi Migs!

I know your blog generally tackles mostly LBGTQ issues and concerns. I am a heterosexual woman. Nonetheless, I felt that I could share this concern with you.

I thought of writing you because I fell in love with this male massage therapist whom I came across through your blog. Long story short, I saw your blogs about him and I got infatuated with him, so much so that I decided to get a massage from him.

The decision to get a massage from him was out-of-character to say the least because I am not entirely comfortable with the idea of having a masseur touch me, much less caress me, especially given that the massage the Spa offers is more than the usual massage I get from my regular spas.

When I finally got the massage, it was more than the usual routine. Without me asking for it, he gave me the “extra service” I only ever heard about from my gay friends. He was ever the gentleman and ensured my comfort all throughout.

After the massage, he started texting me. Given my infatuation, I entertained him. He eventually asked me out on a date. My friends, especially my gay friends, cautioned me against getting into something serious with him considering our circumstances. They warned me that there is always the danger of being made a sugar mommy and of the therapist taking advantage of me for material reasons. I told them that I am a big girl and I can handle it. I was wrong.

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Dear Migs,

I just discovered your blog yesterday ang yet I’m already composing an email for you. Hope you and our friends there can help me.

I’m not into writing letters or expressing myself to anyone ever since. Kaya siguro ang laki ng pasasalamat ko sayo dahil sa 30years ng buhay ko ngaun ko lang maeexpress ung sarili ng totoo as in ako.

Ok, a little bout me. I’m almost at my 30s with a girlfriend and working in an IT/Bpo company and I’m from pateros. Alam ko na attracted ako sa older men/daddy looking men and still do not have plan to go out ever! Di ko gustong maging bakla/bi, gusto ko kasing magkaroon ng sarili kong pamilya. To cut my story short, can you help me reach out to our gay daddies to share their stories with me? Gusto ko malaman mga bagay bagay pag nandun na, kasi nagbabalak na kami magpakasal in 1 or 2 years from now. Thank you in advance.

J.J.

  

hi migs,

to be honest i just started reading ur blog and i really hooked up about the letter i read about PLU people. ang dami palang problema ng mga tao dito i thought mas madaming problema ang economy and sa politics pero mas marami pala dito hahahah…

i just need an advice about my current situation. i have a boyfriend now and he is my third. we’ve been together since 2006 so meaning we just celebrated 9 years. sobrang attached na ako sa kanya na nung nagsama kami e masaya akong nakikita ang mukha nya sa umaga. sa totoo lang gwapo siya at muscular. everyone will get envy to me kasi ako chubby but cute. marami ang nagsasabi na derek ramsey siya from face to body na pinagtatakahan ko kasi sa dami ng tao e ako talaga ang napili.

we love to travel. almost naka 15 countries na kami from asean countries to australia. until we need to separate kasi financial problem. dahil sa bakasyon and enjoyment e nabaon kami sa utang and i need to sacrifice kasi ako ang may good opportunity to work abroad.

the experience without him by my side is really a struggle. umiiyak ako dahil sa work at sa sobrang miss ko sa kanya. nasanay ako na kasama siya for 9 years. kilala na siya ng pamilya ko at kilala ko ang pamilya nya. sa sobrang lungkot ko naka open ako ng application sa cellphone which is grindr.

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Hi to all.
Matagal ko nang gusto ishare tong nararamdaman ko. Sa mga tao kase na
katulad natin, sobrang hirap humarap sa mga tao na straight ka. May
mga bagay kang nagagawa or nasasabi na out of your nature.
Im 26 years old. Nagtatrabaho sa isang semiconductor company ditto sa
Cavite. May dadalawang taon na ako dito. Bilang isang computer
engineering graduate, at sa isang semicon ka pa nagttrabaho, expected
na puro kalalakihan ang makakasama mo sa trabaho. Masaya kase puro
boys. Pero looking on the other side, sobrang hirap.
Marami na rin akong nagustuhan sa mga nakikilala ko dito. Pero share
ko na lang itong latest kong interest.
I have a co-worker here na of my same age. Pero he looks younger than
me. Tahimik, may hitsura, at medyo mahinhin ang kilos. Not mahinhin in
an effeminate way pero yung hindi brusko. Ganun sya kumilos kaya
lagging inaasar or niloloko xang ‘lambo’ or bakla. Once kaming
nagkasama sa isang project. Matagal ko na rin syang kilala pero sa
isang project ko lang sya napansin. We worked on a software
development sa isang machine sa company. It lasted for a month. Sa
isang buwan na yun, dun kami naging close.
Clicngy sya. Laging nakaakbay sa akin. Sumasandal sa skin. Pinapatong
nya ulo nya sa arms or sa balikat ko once he take some nap. Nung
nalaman nyang may kiliti ako, lagi na nya ako kinikiliti. Tapos kung
tignan nya ako, parang may ibig sabihin. Hindi ko alam kung tama ba
itong nararamdaman ko pero nahuhulog na ako sa kanya.
Out of my desperation, I texted him using a different number to show
how much I like him. Sinabi ko sa text na how beautiful he is as a
man, how he kills me with his smile, how he made my day when I see
him. And I told him sa text na gusto ko sya. Sinabi ko rin na lalake
ako at wala akong lakas ng loob magpakilala kase baka magbago yung
pagtingin nya skin bilang katrabaho.
Gusto ko maging close kami. Yung tipong comfortable sya na sabihan ako
ng mga bagay bagay. He’s not very open pa naman about his personal
life. Siguro hindi lang sya sanay na inoopen sa iba yung buhay nya.
Gusto ko iparamdam sa kanya na mahalaga sya sa akin. Gusto ko
iparamdam sa kanya na nagmamalasakit ako sa kanya.
Nung may sakit ssya pero pumasok pa rin sya, kitang kita ko na
nahihirapan sya sa sitwasyon nya. Namumutla na sya at nilalamig pero
trabaho pa rin. Sobra kong naawa. Gusto ko syang awatin sa pagttrabaho
para makapagpahinga. Inakbayan ko sya inhope na mawala ng konti yung
panlalamig nya. Gusto ko na syang yakapin nun ng mahigpit. Pero
pinangunahan pa ako ng takot at kaba. Mahal ko na siguro yung taong
yun para maalala ako ng ganito.
Hay. Ang hirap. Naluluha na lang ako pag tinitignan ko sya sa malayo.
gusto ko sabihin sa kanya kung sino at ano ba talaga ako. Kaso
natatakot ako na baka magbago tingin nya sa akin. At alam kong ganun
ang mangyayari. Ilang beses ko na tong naramdaman sa isang lalake.
Nagtapat ako, at ganun nga ang nangyari. Sobrang hirap. Pano ko ba
makukuha ang loob nya? Kahit maging super close friends lang kami ok
na sakin. Basta lagi ko syang nakakausap at nakakasama.

– Kimi

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Dear Kimi,

Madalas dinadapuan tayo ng kung tawagin natin ay pag-ibig sa panahong wala tayong kamalay-malay. Sa panahong ni hindi pa man din lang natin naiintindihan ang kakaibang pakiramdam ukol sa ating pagkatao, ay bigla tayong dinadaluhong ng pakiramdam na siyang lalong nakapagpapalito sa atin. Tanong mo, “paano ko ba makukuha ang loob niya?”

Pansinin mo na ang iyong katanungan ay upang pumitas, kumaripas na umangkin. Bakit kaya?

Bilang advice, siguro hahayaan kitang gawin kung ano man ang iyong nasa sa loob. Sasabihin ko lamang siguro na bukod sa paglasap sa napakasarap na pakiramdam ng pagiging in-love, sana ay huwag mong kalimutan ang iyong sarili. Ang alagaan mo ang iyong puso, at bigyang pansin din kung ano ang makabubuti sa iyo. Tandaan: Hindi lahat ng maganda, masarap, o kaanya-anyaya ay kinakailangang angkinin. Minsan mas masarap nga na sila’y nandiyan lang, kasama natin, kahit alam mong puwede rin silang wala.

Migs

Dear MEG
1981
 Sa una kong work 5years din akong sidewalk vendor,may kahina ang akin mata
1986
may kapitbahay ako na magaling mag lettering graduate sia ng basic seaman course  at may certificate blanko walang PANGALAN sia kasi sia ang nag lettering mga pangalan ng certificate
At sa pangalan ko nilagay lahat ng document ng bilang basic seaman course na mayroon sia ang ginawa nia ako. sa POEA ng ipapasok ko na ang document para maregestry ang seamanbook ko ay nalusutan ko,lakas ng loob na lang kung paano ko malulusutan ang interview sa POEA kailangan ko gawin yon ang best na  gagawin ko para magkapera at makapag abroad 8years lahat ng pagtitiis, masasakit na salita tangap ng tangap na  lang salitang dignidad ay wala na sa akin, inisip ko ang kapatid ko ang situation ng buhay ng pamilya namin
Nag aral din ako ng ASSOCIATE MARINE ENGEERING pero di pumapasok sa ulo ko ang pag aaral
1997
 tumigil ako sa pagiging seaman , inayawan na ako ng dati kong shipping company dahil dami nagrereklamo sa akin ang mga kasamahan ko dahil mabagal daw ako malulungkutin,di ako makasabay sa kasamahan ko seaman sa lahat ng bagay pero may naawa din sa akin, ang iba naiinis, kaya nagpasya ako tumigil na sa pagseaman at tapos na ang dalawa kong kapatid, para di sila mapariwara
sa perang naipon sinubukan ko magtiwala sa cousin sa teacher sa brother ko at sa internet pyramiding pero walang bumalik sa ngayon bahay na lang ang tangi kong inaasahan nagpaupa ako ng bahay may 10years na rin nakakasurvive din
2003
nag umpisa ang kamalasan ko ng pumatol ako sa 18yrs old na lalaki, sinamantala ko ang kanyang kagipitan ng may kapalit na sex , nag sunod sunod na ang paghahanap ko na panadalian aliw kahit di satify ang kapatner ko dahil sa kaliitan ng akin kargada ko , dinaan ko na lang sa romansa at patira sa puwet para lang makaraos ang patner ko,pero isang bagay lang ang di ko magawa ang makisama ng matagalan parang nasanay na ko na mag isa at maghanap ng iba
Noong bata pa ko napipigilan ko ang tukso at iwas sa mga bagay na masagwa pero pilit nila pina mumukha na bading ako dahil malamya ako amg salita at mabagal kumilos
 

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