I’m back, but not unchanged.
There were several things I learned during my short cocooning phase. One of which is that to espouse “World Peace” — which for me personally means optimism, hope, and positive attitude, characteristics I wish for myself and for many of my brother PLUs — I don’t necessarily have to always be the weak, kind one. I don’t have to be the typical Juday, Nora, or Sharon character. I don’t have to be the perennial underdog, the victim-heroine, the melodrama queen.
Many of you see only the glitter and glamor hovering about my blog — very few know that I have in the past suffered silently because of it.Â Harsh, venomous vituperations which, in my heart of hearts, I believe I do not deserve.Â I learned during these past few weeks that for me to continue with my advocacy for more optimism, hope and positive attitude among the gay community — through my blog or through other means — I need to tend to my own capacity to believe that it is possible.
Given the reality of this world, and my experience of it as a blogger of 2+ years, I would say I need to evolve to someone more firm, someone who can take more control of myself and my blog. Blogging does not just require time, it can sap one of energy. As I continue this online endeavor, I keep this in mind.
And you, my readers who are able to understand, you are my strength. I do not desire that you never disagree. What I desire, if you ever care reading my blog, is that you think with me.